Heart

25 Aug 2024

Dream

I had a dream about being at a burlesque show. I think they were doing a rehearsal. Bc i was the only other person in there aside from the dancers. I walked in and on stage i saw a grouo of girls in blue fringed outfits sitting in a circle on stage. A hispanic woman appeared from behind the curtains. She began to dance in a seductive manner. She would make eye contact with me and grab her chest/heart.

20 Aug 2024

Dream

Rijal Gerend Streetfood I was sitting with gerend and rijal in the corner of a street food tent, it is beside the road. Our school classmates are also here, Sister Anjani, my teammate is also here, I saw her walking away going to her seat. Because we're literally beside the road, we got heavy smoke in front of us and we had heavy coughs, so I advise my friends to go somewhere further from the road like, like in the middle of the street food tent being cool gentlemens. My 2 friends, Rijal and gerend agreed, but rijal didn't want to sit with gerend anymore, they had an argument, but I calm things down, we then set up the chairs like a heart, Rijal sat at my right, I sat at the middle, and gerend sat at my left, I am in between gerend and rijal. Saksi and others looked at us and though we are cool, now we can sit without coughing anymore. After that I went to the school library and read some books about geology, rocks, and trees. I found a page about hard metals and weak metals, Azzam questioned me about what a hard metal looks like, but I didn't really know. So he pulled me out of the library with the book, and tried to find a hard metal item, in the book, one of the characteristics are a red ladder. Then I found the same red ladder in the school hallway, where I found 2 construction workers sitting on the red ladder, then after founding it, I went to the ground, zap some shoes on my feet, and walk a few meters from school until I hear intense door knocking till I woke up.

19 Aug 2024

Dream

I was on the street and I remember seeing my brother and a lady next to a car and feeling very uncomfortable and scared. I looked towards my brother and I remember seeing the lady and a man dressed in all dark clothing to conceal his identity shoot a gun and the bullet went through her head leaving her body limp and sliding down the front of her car. I was filled with extreme fear. Then I was oddly in my grandma’s white Lincoln and she was driving wearing some black outfit. She parked and took me with her to a front door of brown brick building with a black door and knocked. It was a funeral parlor and though she didn’t tell me I knew she was trying to schedule her death. No one answered. I could feel my heart beating through my chest and tears filling my eyes as I heard her continue to knock no one answered. I knew I didn’t want her to go in there and I didn’t want anything to do with all this loss. Everything went dark and I don’t know if my grandma ever walked into that building.

16 Aug 2024

Dream

I met a guy. We got to know each other then I started to feel happy again. He made me feel so warm. He made me feel safe and cared for me. He protected me. Somehow we got into a conflict with some other people and they showed up with guns. They were shooting at us. We shot back but unfortunately one of our opponents shot at him right to heart and it went out the other side. I was anxious, scared and crying as I picked him up to get him to the car to drive him to the hospital even tho in the back of my head I know there’s no saving him because the bullet went right through the middle of his chest and came out the other way. I wasn’t gonna give up until there’s nothing left to do. Got him in the car crying as the life is slowly draining out of him he looks at me with so much pain and love as if he wanted me to not be in pain even as he was dying. Got in the driver seat with him in the back and started driving to the hospital.

12 Aug 2024

Dream

I had a dream that I was watching my fiences name that is tatted on my chest was engraved into my heart like a hot iron in the same font as my tattoo but each letter was spelled out slow into my heart it looked like it hurt but it felt good and I woke up smiling

10 Aug 2024

Dream

An abandoned city covered in moss & debris, cracks in the ground leading up to an icy cold dome, encapsulating a version of myself with an exposed heart in and exposed ribs. I'm in the centre of a circle of statues of people I'm familiar with. I sense a danger my open heart as I see my ex holding a knife, she stands frozen in fear knowing she's been spotted. The knife drops as my hand rests on her shoulder as I comfort her. The moment I sensed her calmness amd saw her smile, I roughly cut her head off before repeatedly stabbing her

29 Jul 2024

Dream

I don’t remember much of it, but there was…cyborg clones of 4 women. An Asian women who was running a masturbation or BDSM society kind of thing? Some were live streamed? Others weren’t. There were multiple times we were caught by a higher power or something similar…there was a cell…a submarine where we were trying to survive flooding…there was unrest…a difficult set of circumstances that caused me to start anew, and rock the boat throwing many overboard…4-3 people remained. Then there was…me waking up back in the BDSM club , with the Asian woman…they found me thinking to take me captive, but they knew who I was, apologized, and assisted me. Many of these clones were androids and cyborgs. When I explained my situation with the mail being missing or not received for 2 months, they both (2 cyborgs caring for me) seemed irritated and went to question who was running the homeless’s mail and why. Turned out they were being sent to the older room instead of the newer room number which is why I never got anything. There was a moment where I reached out to something glowing…it held the pieces of my heart. Crucial missing pieces that were meant for me to reclaim. To heal. To hold. My power. An embrace enveloped me. Making it difficult to awaken fully in reality. Was left with the feeling of needing to rest more.

24 Jul 2024

Dream

I had found a baby in my house; It looked quite strange, but it was cute. It could like talk like a normal person, but when he spoke it was like broken, and he still had a very baby like voice. One very vivid part of the dream is when I walked into my brothers room and ask “ where is the baby”. We were supposed to be taking care of this child I guess. They told me they had no idea, so I began to panic. There was a huge dryer in there room? Not sure why it was their; I asked them they responded, I don’t remember what hat they said. I start think what if the baby was as in the dryer and exploded. I was scared. Next thing you know I find the baby under my younger brother’s bed as well as my two brothers. Which was weird because they just had walked out the room. At that moment I was about to realize I was dreaming, but I got distracted by the baby. In fact I remember think how did they just spawn under the bed, but I was distracted by the baby. I asked “ so where is your mommy” he replied and said “ in here” and pointed to his heart. I asked do you have anyone else or I asked about his grandpa or dad and he said “ I have my huba”. Not sure if he said huba or bubba, anywho. I told him we’ll find his bubba, I asked where his bubba could be the first time he didn’t hear me. The second time he heard me but before he could answer my alarm went off… The baby in question was a pale baby; you could see his veins. He had blue eyes and a big head. He was a small baby who could only crawl.