Body

29 Aug 2024

Dream

I woke up and checked my bank account and realized 550,000 was transferred into my bank. I was stunned. It was a from a forgiven account I couldn’t read or recognize. It scared me that this happened and I didn’t know how to process or what to do with the information. I wanted to tell my husband but I didn’t know if I should, as I was unsure if he was actually my husband. I went to the gas station to see if I could pull any money out from my account. I was able to pull a few hundred dollars out and felt some relief. At the gas station there were some high school kids being obnoxious and they made me feel anxious, I left to go back home. When I went back home my husband was awake and we had plans to see my mom. She picked us up and it was raining. We were driving around town and I couldn’t get a grasp on reality. I wanted to tell my mom about this money but I again felt very afraid. I had a desire to my nails done. When my dropped us back home, I told her I wanted to talk with her, and I remember feeling anxious about this. She had things to do and made it clear it needed to be to be quick. I brought her in the house while my husband was still in the car, and I kept trying to muster up telling her but I kept avoiding the actual truth. I didn’t know if I could trust her. My husband came in and my mom left. I became unsure if my husband was my actual husband, and I gave him a series of questions to test him to see. I wasn’t convinced. We did a tour through the house because I felt scared and paranoid. In the back room there was a old man’s body on the floor lying in the fetal position, but neither of us were surprised to see this, as if he was a part of the house. At one point we ended up on the driveway and our dog was in the car and there was a shoot out with the police. I remember being so scared for the dog, worried they were going to hurt or kill him.

12 Aug 2024

Dream

In my dream I woke up at my normal time to get ready for work, and Heather and I were messaging each other about the weather. Good light conversation like normal. I went to get into the shower and as I looked at my naked body, it was all splintering away like rotten wood, most of my insides were hollowed. I looked out the window and saw a tree had fallen onto the roof of the house, with multiple breaks of branches. The weatyer was strong winds, heavy rain and dark clouds. I worried about Heather in this weather. I couldn't reach her. Then I woke up.

7 Aug 2024

Dream

I dreamed I was exhaling letters in different forms that were demons and my body was getting rid of them by doing this. I was not scared but relieved

29 Jul 2024

Dream

So in my dream I was watching a show, and this show was a food eating show about a man and a teenage girl, young teenage girl, like 13 or 14, and maybe one other person, one other girl. And they went to the Middle East to this forbidden place to sample food. He went down a cliff to get in, and then he knelt down and worshipped the security there, the minister, the elder that was there. And then they went up into a little place where there was an encyclopedia, and it was very beautiful. It showed the plants and stuff that were there, and then it was on my body on how there were colors, jewels, not jewels, but like little body excrements that were colored on my body. And then they went to a new show where they were like, what were they thinking? And then the girl found a skull that they had hot sauce in, and then I woke up.

18 Jul 2024

Dream

I once had a dream that I woke up with a penis… I’m a woman, when I looked down at myself in the dream and I have the body of a man. No breasts, and male genetalia. But, I didn’t feel dysphoria about it. It felt right, just like being a woman feels right.

15 Jul 2024

Dream

I was walking with the Appstles and offered Matthew a fidget spinner since he showed signs of autism and needing something to focus on doing with his hands. At first he seemed dubious but settled once I showed him how it worked. When Mary Magdalene got her period, I showed her how to use a menstrual cup and offered her scented soap to wash with. The others seemed uneasy I was spending time with a menstruating woman and not menstruating myself, but I ignored them. Since she was taller than me, I motioned for Mary to bend down so I could kiss her cheek. This was made difficult by the fact I did not speak Hebrew or the Apostles, English. I mostly communicated with a kind of pidgin sign language. Jesus was the only one who understood me when I spoke. I encouraged Him to take better care of His body since He could not complete His mission if His physical form failed.