Abuse

28 Aug 2024

Dream

I was with my abusive ex-boyfriend. We are in this apartment and I'm hanging out with a couple of friends. One of my friends invited me to this activity to hangout. I think I had plans with my ex but for some reason I was kind of getting over him. So I decided to hang out with my girlfriends and I started making more plans with them. He overheard and from behind he grabs my head and slams it on the counter and asked me where do you think you're going. My ex never physically assaulted me in that way in my waking life but he would physically intimidate and if I didn't manage my behaviors I wouldn't put it past him to do something like that. For some reason, I wasn't even scared I felt validated that my two girlfriends were there to witness what happened. Later on in the dream I'm going through the criminal court case process like I'm currently doint in my waking life. I think that incident where he slammed my head got recorded and we were already in the criminal court case process when it happens. The incident got recorded somehow by my ex and he sends it to his lawyer. His lawyer comes over and tries to retrieve I find his phone and take it. He tries to convince me to take the phone but I refuse, but I know if I hold onto his possession for too long he can use it against me so I complied but before I do I send the recording to someone but idk who. Later on were at this court and the prosecutor's lawyers and my ex’s lawyer or commiserating with the judge about the incident. And the judge finally rules he needs to be in jail during the court process. When the official trial court date begins I get overwhelmed seeing him and it hits me again what he did to me. I get triggered and leave the room and walk to another building where the prosecutors or located to try to emotionally gather myself. Several of the procecuter lawyers comes to check on me and make sure I'm ready to proceed to testify as a witness. I told them yes and go back. There was limited seating in the room and I would have to sit next to him I find another spot to sit at. There was another person in the room I believe a guy who was also a witness of being harrassed by my ex. My ex wasn't queer but it was notable that there was another person who been abused by him. In my waking life, he has a previous DV conviction from a previous girlfriend. Later on I'm not sure what was the ruling against my ex but Im pretty sure it was guilty because he was sent back to jail. Later on in dream I still felt overwhelmed with everything that happened. I went to the lower level of the prosecuter’s office and this creepy old white man tried to kidnap me and push me into this basement no one knows about and no one would ever hear me cry out for help. He almost caught me but I got away with him enough to cry out for help and a friend saw this suspicious behavior and several ppl were alerted and caught the guy and he was jailed. Later on I was in this house and feeling overwhelmed and scared with everything that happened to me between my ex and that creepy old man. I was scared and throughout the night my friends, the prosecutors lawyers who also was around being friendly to me, and even a coworker was there to help and support me. At some point I was even feeling scared to go to the bathroom by myself and my coworker was nice to come with me. Later on in the dream everyone in the house that was supporting me got loose and drink a lot of liquor, had fun and passed out. Everyone was nice to me. And I was surrounded by a bunch of people in this house supporting me. Later on in the dream me and the guy who got harrassed by me ex was at this party getting celebrated for being survivors of abuse and stepping up and going through the trials to hold him accountable. I finally was able to connect with the guy that got harassed we hugged each other and cried in each other arms supporting each other knowing only two of us understood what my abusive ex put is through. There was people taking pictures of us. But we hugged not for the photos but to hold space and support each other. We also remain connected afterwards.

27 Aug 2024

Dream

Last night I had a very disturbing dream. I dreamt that I was undercover in a child abuse case .

27 Aug 2024

Dream

So, this dream felt very very weird. So, actually, I saw a dream of my grandmother, but my grandmother actually cried, and she doesn't look my grandmother, but her face looked familiar. And, in my dream, there was my mother, father, and grandmother. They all looked, they all felt strange, like a feeling of strangeness. So, yeah, my mom was with a holding handkey, and she said, look, it has light, it has a yellow mark, and it means someone has black magic, and gave to us a negative energy, and bad energies. So, I saw it, and told my mom, there's no yellow mark, it's just a design. But, after some time, I saw, yes, there's a yellow mark. It was crazy, right? Now, we were surrounded by the bad energies and ghosts. Then, I heard a boom, and again, they got someone, sent us a black magic copy. I saw it, it also was here with yellow marks. It was scary. When I saw it, I got scared, and I ran away, and my mother and father were sleeping. So, I took the paper, and I secretly put it. Like, I don't want to harm myself, or mother, or others. So, I put the black magic paper down my father's pillow, where I was sleeping. Like, it's just useless, I want him to die. Then, I came in my room, and wake up my sister. Like, I tried to sleep with her, but then I felt like, like, I'm not so bad, that I want to kill my father. I just felt sad, like, my father will die, even though he hate me, he hate me so bad, he abuse me. Still, I don't want to kill him. So, I ran away, and went to my mother's. My parents were sleeping, I told my mother about that, and told her that there's a black magic paper. So, they threw it at me, and I went to sleep. I was very scared, and horrid, and just very scared, very scared.

20 Aug 2024

Dream

I screamed why can't this little girl give me the details of my assault? The father of my child and my father were keeping a little girl who witnessed my betrayal from my family who used me and abused me. It was the women in my family who stepped up to find the missing pieces and as we cleaned the church in purple and white with quarters on the sheets of purple and white this little white girl told me the pieces of the missing puzzle. We only allowed women in and current who tried to come in and take the child back to play the piano for them. Included my father, the father of my child and his friends, and my grandfather tried to stop Mr finding the truth

18 Aug 2024

Dream

I dreamed that I encountered a very close friend. In the dream she asked me some details about a traumatic time in my life caused by one particular person. Although in reality she already knew the details, I explained everything to her explicitly in full detail. The dream even revealed specifics that I didn’t remember, until I was awake.

18 Aug 2024

Dream

I had these powers, most likely telekinesis. I just used it without question. I blew up a cathedral and church, blood was everywhere. I kept causing chaos and even killed my family. I used my powers to kill every single one of my bullies and abusers without hesitation. No one did anything but watch in fear.

17 Aug 2024

Dream

Very violent dreams. I was on a a boat or cruise and there was some kind of sorority and fraternity rush happening. There was a girl being seriously hazed and abused. I couldn’t stop it.

16 Aug 2024

Dream

There was a scary man who tried to keep us in a school and wouldn’t let us leave. He actually tried to take my clothes off but then the students came and rescued me. We all ganged up and figured out a way to sneak out without him noticing and we discussed this in one of the bathrooms where he can’t usually see us. A couple of us needed to go to pee and they opened some of the doors and there were bats hanging from the ceiling, one was dead and we thought the other was too but he wasn’t. The bat ended up really attached to one of my friends and he was actually cute. The scary man found us and I freaked out and hid behind one of the boys which was actually also the boy I had a major crush on and it made me happy and fuzzy inside. Another dream I had was that my grandma(momma) came to pick me up for a weekend hangout and for some reason my grandpa was there but he passed away a few years ago.momma was mad cause I couldn’t leave until the kid I babysat got picked up from her dad

16 Aug 2024

Dream

My older brother was abusing me. Sexually and physically. Every time I would come to his room and tell him, “I don’t like you!” And he’ll get really mad at me and hit me and pinch my skin. Throwing me to my room and dots of my skin are off because of the pinching. He keeps getting mad and hurting me. Then he leaves and I call my mother who is coming home from work. I cry and tell her, “I need to speak to you, please.” And I cry even harder as it is hard to move my body because it stings and hurts. She asks me, “What’s wrong?” But I don’t answer her question and I plea, “Please believe me. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry for this. Believe me.” While crying and I hang up the phone right after.

12 Aug 2024

Dream

In my dream I was in a aspca shelter looking to adopt a husky puppy. My ex was there and he wanted to adopt a puppy as well . My mom was there and she adopted a puppy. They both adopted a puppy. And when I found the puppy I wanted he was sick so they told me to find another puppy to adopt. I found one he was tiny. So I saw my ex walk out with a puppy and I told the people that man should not have a dog he’s cruel to animals. They stopped him and took the puppy away from him. I only told the truth my ex doesn’t enjoy animals they way I do. He mis treats them.

11 Aug 2024

Dream

I dreamed that my parents got back together and my abusive father was trying to kill my childhood dog Lola with broken glass tried force feeding her it but she wouldn’t eat it and I was screaming at him to get off my dog

10 Aug 2024

Dream

I dream that I was on a Truck and it was Dawn.. The driver was a strange man... I asked him, "where are we going?" He didn't respond and continued driving in a turn.. Which made me feel anxious.. Then we arrive at a gate house.... The gate was probably yellow... I couldn't get a grasp since it's dark... Then, we get inside Inside, was a Man and a Woman I assume Husband and Wife, They're fighting. The Man was abusive and hurt the Woman. And the Woman even choked blood.. The woman ran away and the man followed her. Then he came back but now with many hands and laughing. the Strange guy I'm with couldn't watch still and beat up the Man... Then, after that there's a wolf man and a little man fighting... The little man was helpless.... He's getting beat up. After that for some reason he beat the man... Then, I saw Sheldon, yes Sheldon from a series or so... He was solving a math equation and saw the beat up wolf... But he just grabbed a bottle of wine and poured a glass of it... Then, I saw his family in some kind of fight... Pretty intense yes.. Then, I remember I'm outside... It was snowing.... And almost everything is snowing beside the dark starry night. Then, I saw this white fox... This fox seems to be observing me... And for some reason I felt threatened since I have food with me... Or maybe... I'm the food... Well either way there's a trash bin and so but in the end the Fox didn't attack me.. I'm just wary of the fox