Addiction

28 Aug 2024

Dream

First dream, I was in a neighborhood and I had a party with some friends. They stole one of my neighbor's motorhomes and like drove it into their yard. And they got in trouble at the club and we all ended up leaving at different times. But when we got back to the house, I realized that they had caused this huge mess and had been very disruptive to the entire neighborhood. So I had to go around and apologize to everyone for it. The second part of my dream, we were driving somewhere, but I was going down this really narrow road. I swerved and I hit someone's fence and it like fell over. And we got out of the car and said sorry. I gave my insurance information. And the guy who owned the fence said, well, you know, this fence costs like $100,000 and you don't carry enough insurance for that. So we can make a deal and you could just have a baby for us instead since we can't. And for whatever reason, I said, yeah, I'll give that a go. Even though I know I can't have a baby, but I don't have $100,000 to fix their fence either. The other part of my dream was watching my niece, Juniper. We were doing various activities and she was walking and she kept walking away from me and I kept trying to catch up with her. And I lost her like multiple times at this MASSIVE garage sale. And the last part of my dream, some kid was getting made fun of because he got his hair cut. It was like a bowl shaped haircut. We were trying to make him feel better by putting it in like warrior braids.

24 Aug 2024

Dream

In the stream, I was with a group of friends they had an apartment and they seem to be a younger kind of crowd like maybe early 20s there’s two females who I was having a lot of fun with, but they didn’t necessarily get along in the dream I was trying to do a shot of meth and I wasn’t able to do it at first, but then I did and then I didn’t feel anything and then the other girl did it and she did and I got mad. Also, there is these sets of sneakers. They were like vans or something but there's a collector set and they came with two different shoes in them and they were styled with the McDonald’s character grimace the big purple guy in the sets they would have one with one emotion and one with another motion so you would have two different style shoes on your feet, although they were all purple, for instance, 1 would be happy when will be sad or when will be mad and when will be happy or we will be crying and we will be laughing and we all had these shoes at least the girls did. I was wanting to get some stuff to wear to go out with them and I didn’t have any money, but I had my my paycheck that I needed to cash and we are trying to figure out where to go that would cash checks after 7 PM so that we could go out and do something that night. That’s when I woke up.

19 Aug 2024

Dream

I visited these sisters in the hospital. One was dying and the other was healthy, the one that was dying I talked too for hours it felt like, we laughed and cried, but she died at the end, and then the dream changed, the dead sister turned into a dead cat, and I was crying so hard my chest hurt. We weren’t in the hospital anymore we were in an old broken down house, in a hidden back bedroom. The dead cat was laying on the window sill. I left my old stuffed dog that I owned as a young kid there with her, and I covered her in a blanket. I walked out of the room and I closed the door and I put a blanket over it and I pushed a dresser in front of the door so nobody else would go in. When I left the room the other sister was there. I said to her “it felt like your sister was apart of my family” and she said to me “my sister was a drug addict and it would be a shame to stay here and become just like her” then I woke up

11 Aug 2024

Dream

For context, I am in recovery and used to be a fentynal addict. Last night I had a dream that I was in a strange place and ended up in a little corner with a few people. I had a giant bag of fentynal and gave it to everyone to try and did some myself. I then narcaned the few people who tried it because they started to overdose and I flushed the rest down the toilet. I then called my sponsor crying begging her to not make me re start my day count of how many days sober I had. And I was extremely worried about losing my job due to relapse.

3 Jul 2024

Dream

I’m in a public health class. It doesn’t quite work for me, though during the class we go down a river and someone like chase Romero tells me to leave my mouth open while swimming. I’m worried about dirty water but then I realize no different than air. I do. In another class and the teacher is wondering if a kid in the class is drinking or something. I ask him. He says no-using needles and smack. A guy comes by early evening n the morning he says and they do a little to help him through the day. I feel a little shook. the teacher’s husband wants her in rehab cause she sees visions. I say at least stay with someone. I believe you are okay though. You’re not mentally ill. The classroom has no windows. We are putting our names on list. To go back and join with the other class that I originally came from. I need a student there who I knew from before and we are going to work together. I’m excited.

1 Jul 2024

Dream

My uncle is having a going away party for Madonna. I am really excited to meet her. I decide to give up my 30 days of sobriety and I’m drinking a margarita. I drink it quickly and am waiting to feel the effects of the alcohol. I am excited to be a part of everything and am walking around the room taking selfies with everyone