Emotions

23 Aug 2024

Dream

I was a spirit and was told that I have to remove and replace my old, ancient, never used, dusty, China cabinet because it's taking up too much space. I was told this about many items, otherwise I would become a lost spirit. I was enraged and bawling the whole time. Even though those items didn't get a lot of attention, they still held meaning to me, and showed me how far I had come. To replace or remove them feels like removing my progress, but I did it anyway because I didn't want to become lost. Each item removed caused a great deal of emotional and mental stress. I would remember moments of my life that had that item in there, but then also when it was last used and left to dust. I would outcry and scream and bawl at the top of my lungs at each item, and wonder why I was subjected to this torture. I awoke in tears.

19 Aug 2024

Dream

I visited these sisters in the hospital. One was dying and the other was healthy, the one that was dying I talked too for hours it felt like, we laughed and cried, but she died at the end, and then the dream changed, the dead sister turned into a dead cat, and I was crying so hard my chest hurt. We weren’t in the hospital anymore we were in an old broken down house, in a hidden back bedroom. The dead cat was laying on the window sill. I left my old stuffed dog that I owned as a young kid there with her, and I covered her in a blanket. I walked out of the room and I closed the door and I put a blanket over it and I pushed a dresser in front of the door so nobody else would go in. When I left the room the other sister was there. I said to her “it felt like your sister was apart of my family” and she said to me “my sister was a drug addict and it would be a shame to stay here and become just like her” then I woke up

23 Jul 2024

Dream

I had a dream I was at my auntie house it was me my mom my grandma and we were waiting for my uncle kemar to come and pick up clothes from us and when kemar came he walked up and handed me a water bottle that had alil bit of water in it and him and my mom laughed and I was looking confused so then we walked in the house and it had clothes in the hallways and a table to my left with stuff to cut and stitch clothes with and my mom had told him his hoodie came and it was red and it had words in the corner in white and black and words on the back and he was like I like it and he picked it up and said yall treat me so nice and I was like I also have clothes you could have to it was a bodysuit and jogger with skeleton hands on the butt part and I showed him it and I was like you could cut the body suit in to a shirt since it has sleeve or you could just wear the jogger and he said again yall treat me so good and everybody was just smiling and happy then I went into a different dream and it started at my school deloro and it was me and some of the people in my cheer and asb team and we had go sent to a different school bcs it wasn’t enough room and it looked like a elementary or jounior high but I was dressed like emo and I was dating a girl on my team named Ashley at first everything was fine and cool but then she started acting weird towards me and everybody in are friend group can see it and then we ended up in the cafeteria and that when it got even more weird it was two girl one on the side of Ashley and two infront of me and we were all sitting down I’ve never seen this girls before but everytime I would try and touch Ashly she would get mad and yell at me so I started look at this room that was infront of my it was yell with a window and it look like it head a vr set and games there was people in it but I just caught my eye to keep my mind off crying but when I didn’t try and touch her she would grab my leg and put my leg on top of hers and put her hand on my thigh so I moved my leg and I had said what wrong with you your being weird and she just said I guess I’m weird and laughed with her friend I guess so I got up and walked away and I got my phone and called Julissa my other friend and she didn’t answer so I texted her and while my head was down I bumbed into her and was telling her what happend but at this point we are infront of the cafeteria and this boy name Emanuel is playing football and we’re pretty much standing behind him and Julissa acting like she’s not listen to what I’m saying so I stop talking to her and some girl comes and starts talking to me but I don’t remember her face I just remember she had a white shirt on and then I wake up bcs my mom called and I leave my room but when I go back to my room there’s a dead lizard laying face up in my bed smushed and the tail in off and also I woke up crying in the dream and kinda out of the dream to but I would just go back to sleep and I don’t know what it means

16 Jul 2024

Dream

I was waiting for something to happen. The government was changing and not in a good way. Love was declared a disease and religions were under attack. There’s a procedure, a lobotomy really, which took away a person’s ability to feel emotions on a deep level. The phrase “better doesn’t always mean better for everyone. It always means worse for some.” Kept running through my head. I was scared. I didn’t know how to resist and I didn’t want to lose my ability to feel