7 Aug 2024
Dream
I was traveling on a train with Aaron and Andrew. We seemed to be in some manner of a first-class situation and heading on an excursion or traveling somewhere with people from school again. Erin asked Andrew if she could have some of the pot we must have packed as she felt like a joint. I wanted to make some too. It didn't feel bad or naughty or illegal, it must be something that's okay as we didn't seem to care and we didn't care that we smoked it on the train. It wasn't a competition, but I was having fun at the fact I rolled a bigger joint than Erin. But for some reason, even though my joint was bigger, I couldn't properly close it. And it looked messy, and as if all the weed was going to fall out. Nonetheless, Erin and I still lit our joints and started having them. Suddenly some guys I went to school with but didn't really talk to came from one of the other carriages and was talking about how it's unfair we told them we had weed and we should have shared. I was joking around with them, but finished my joint in front of them and didn't give them any. Erin seemed a bit overwhelmed or nervous about these guys, so got up and walked away. I'm not sure why she never said, and I'm not sure how upset she was, so I went looking for her. I went into the next carriage but I couldn't see her anywhere and no one in that carriage I seemed to recognize. I was surprised that there must have been more carriages because for some reason I thought there was only the two. So I went into the last carriage and I noticed Erin was sitting in between two people I don't like anymore. They were also wearing school uniforms whereas before Erin and I and Andrew were wearing normal clothes. I went and sat behind them and asked Erin how she's feeling and if she wanted to come back to where we were sitting. The girl on her right, Leticia, turned around and asked me why first class wasn't good enough and if I was slumming it here now. I didn't reply and Erin turned around to look at me but turned back without saying anything. I went back to where I was sitting in the front carriage next to Andrew and the guy that was sitting in front of me I noticed was on his phone. I asked him if he was the one that told the others we were having joints. The next scene Erin was crying about wanting to go home and that she didn't like it here. I consoled her and told her I understood, but I can't remember exactly how I fixed it. The next scene, Andrew, Erin and I were sitting at a table in a shopping centre food court. I was across from Andrew while Erin was sitting to the right of us at the end of the table. A group of three women came up to the table and started talking to Andrew, telling him that their friend ran into him yesterday and that they were glad she saw him. They started talking about how it was crazy that their friend wasn't wearing any pants and they don't know if Andrew noticed or not. It started to make me very uncomfortable and I could tell that Andrew was trying to not react but look at the table and change the topic of conversation. Then they started talking to Andrew about how crazy it was that she was wearing a G-string and nothing else and that it must have been so funny to see. Then the girls asked Andrew if he still had his leg tattoo and if he finished it and Andrew perked up and said yes so they asked him if they could see it. Andrew then stood up at the table and pulled his jeans up but suddenly it was as if he was wearing a skirt or dress or no pants at all. He was showing them his tattoo on his thigh and he turned slightly so it looked like you could see his butt. I became very, very angry and frustrated at this fact. Erin must have been able to see it. So she said and interrupted the women, saying that this is Brody, Andrew's wife, by the way. The women acknowledged it but continued ignoring me, so I stood up and said it's fine, keep doing what you're doing, I need to use the bathroom anyway. I stormed off thinking Andrew was going to follow me but alas he stayed at the table which grew my frustration more and I started to cry. I found a bathroom not far from where we were sitting and when I went inside the bathroom I tried finding somewhere to sit. All the benches at the front of the bathroom were taken and as I didn't need to use the toilet I decided against taking one up. I walked to the back of the stalls at the back of the room and found that there was a giant sitting room with a lot of people in it, almost as if it was a doctor's waiting room. There was a lot of mothers with their kids there and I was trying to find a seat but there were only single seats next to people and I didn't want to be weird. Finally I found a row of empty seats and decided to sit there. I was looking at my phone to try and kill some time when three boys came over and sat near me. They were aged 1, 8 and 12. the youngest started trying to use my phone and touching the screen the mother apologized for him and I said no it's okay don't worry about it but I moved my phone so he couldn't break it As I moved it further away from me, the young boy ended up squeezing me and giving me a hug and squeezing his head really tightly against my cheek. The mother again apologised and said that it was a sensory thing for him and I said no, don't stress, I'm a support worker, I totally understand and I asked the young boy if he'd like a hug. He then gave me a very tight cuddle on my face before letting go and standing next to me. The other two boys seemed to be a little jealous and asked for a hug as well. That's when I asked the mum how old they were and she told me 1, 8 and 12. I was shocked that the youngest boy was one, as he was really tall and looked more like he was five or six, but I didn't say this out loud. Then I got up and walked out of the bathroom where Erin was waiting for me. We walked back towards where we were sitting together, when I ran into Natalie that seemed to be on her way to work. Natalie could see I was a little upset and asked what was wrong. I explained the situation with Andrew and said it's weird because usually Andrew would decline showing women his tattoos as he finds it quite personal. Natalie got a little frustrated with me and I told her no don't worry Andrew's great it must just be a weird thing today or maybe he knows them really well I'm not sure but I'll find out I still couldn't understand why I felt sad and jealous though. The next scene, I was walking through the car park outside of this shopping centre and still hadn't found Andrew, but now I was by myself as well, walking past all of these shops through the car park.
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