Panic

25 Aug 2024

Dream

Last night I had a dream that’s a variant of many similar dreams lately. I was sitting in a cafè having coffee with someone, I don’t know who but I know that it was a friend or acquaintance and I was waiting to go to the airport. I don’t remember where I was going just that it was very important. Someone asks me (actually I think it was my husband) when my flight is and I said 15.45 so I gave still lots of time. We sit, chatting and then I say, maybe I need to go get my bags and start getting ready. When I’m there packing the bags I see my phone has been on “do not disturb” so I switch it on and notifications about my flight start pouring in from an hour before. I then understand that I remembered badly, the flight was a connecting one and the second flight were to leave at 15.45 but the first one was at 13.30! I panic, I HAVE to get to my destination, it’s so important, people are counting on me, oh my god what am I doing, why am I so distracted? I usually have total control about things! Weird enough I’m more or less at the airport and I need to find the office of the airline so they can maybe help me get to the connecting flight or change it to a direct one and I just need to add the money. I’m searching for the office, asking people for directions and some just look at me blankly, then finally outside a pharmacy a lady tells me it’s just around the corner. I turn the corner but just see a restaurant. I ask the lady again and she says, no it’s there, just look closer, I don’t think you’re looking. I go back and I see it, it’s right there. I go to open the door and I have to look down because the step is at a weird height and when I look up again I wake up. This is a variant of other dreams with the same sense of urgency and getting to a certain secret destination that’s vital for me and my kids. My husband is usually there but never helps, sometimes he even makes it worse by going the wrong way taking the kids with him or not listening when I call for him/them. He usually never looks at me or talks to me, like I’m not there. Usually I need to get to a bus, or a train or a flight and I loose my direction or there are obstacles in the way (stairs that change where they end, or by crossing the street I end up five blocks further away, by opening a door I find myself in a place where I don’t know how to get out or where I even am). I always wake up before I get there or before I know I’ll make it. It’s like an elusive maze but with the stress of having to get there, almost like it’s a life or death situation. It’s extremely stressful and the dreams are filled with a lot of anxiety and frustration. I’m doing everything, like everything I can to get me (and sometimes the kids) to where I need to go but whatever I do it’s like walking through mud or being pushed further away. I’m thinking this is a metaphor for my life, someone or something being the block that keeps me held back in every way.

23 Aug 2024

Dream

I had a dream there was a man I found attractive in my bathroom, I found him in there and was confused as to why he was in my house but I let him shower and waited outside but got panicked when I heard the front door unlock, my mum came home as I didn’t know what to say

23 Aug 2024

Dream

I was staying overnight at a Titanic-themed museum. The trip included a tour of a museum. At the end of the tour, I realized I hadn’t arranged for transport home and panicked. I was in Stonington and my nearest ride was in Manchester. The group was singing “Wellerman” when I returned from arranging my ride. The owner of the property was eager to get me off as soon as the tour finished, even though I was still in my pajamas.

23 Aug 2024

Dream

Had a scary dream where it was dark and I met a mysterious woman that was lying about who she was. The next day I was in my parents house and saw my mom and my grandma. I told my mom about the woman and said she was not to be trusted. My grandma then said there was someone waiting outside her window looking for me (it was the woman.) I had panicked but my mom was there to protect me and my grandma, and they were both on the lookout for her and we locked all the doors and windows. I felt like I was being chased.

22 Aug 2024

Dream

I was deciding where to hold my music class at the residential home. There was an attractive boy so i decided to hold it close to him. I forgot my instruments for my music class, so left to get them. But drove car too fast, lost control and couldn't see where i was. Grandma was in car with me. I passed out and woke up with her telling me my car battery had died. So began to panic about making my class in time.

22 Aug 2024

Dream

i came home from grocery shopping on a regular work day. it was the afternoon, not even close to dusk. I started unpacking some of my items and sat down at the dinner table. suddenly i hear someone trying to get in through the window in my room. i panic, i try to exit my home and can feel that whoever just came in is trying to get me. i quickly ran to my neighbors and begged for help but nobody believed me. after a while of begging someone finally came to take a look at the situation and the intrudors were already gone. they had taken all of the full grocery bags with them. my neighbor didnt believe me and left. i was devastated, what does one even do in this situation? then i heard it again - the taps on the window in my room. my blood ran cold, i immediately exited my home and begged for help. no one believed me so i went back inside. then after a while after i was sure they wouldnt try to rob me again, i decided to study on my laptop in my room. there it was. the faces of the two intruders looking directly at me through the window. two black women, probably a couple as one looked masculine and the other one feminine. i sighed and fearfully left again. i ran out of my home and begged my neighbors once again. but while i was begging it hit me - CALL THE POLICE. so i asked for the police number for robbery (cus theres a specific one) and nobody wanted to tell me so i had to look it up. when i came back downstairs to my home, obviously my school laptop was gone too. i hid in the coats which were directly in front of the door to my room and held a loaded gun for when they come again. i had completely lost my mind. then the women came again, yet they told me that they see my gun and other stuff. i remained still, as if i wasnt even home. theres no way they saw anything, i was so beautifully hidden and my gun masked. they wouldve had to pay close attention to the gun hole to recognize it. then i woke up.

21 Aug 2024

Dream

I was trying out a new program at my teaching job - teaching a painting class! One class ended and I had about half an hour to prepare for the next one. People started flooding in, mostly adults, some families, some students that are already working with me at CMA. I laid out big pieces of watercolor paper for them with pre-drawn designs. I also left out acrylic paints and markers, but no watercolors. I told them to sit tight while I changed my clothes. I went into a different part of the building and tried to look for clothes, but I had no luck. I could not find a single thing and I was panicking. Suddenly I realized - I was late. The class was already supposed to have started. I was making the students wait for me and I just hoped that they were biding their time by trying out some of the art supplies. Finally, I got back to the class and it was almost the ending time. I felt so embarrassed and ashamed, but then I realized that they had indeed been creating art with the supplies I laid out. Everyone had created a beautiful art piece and they seemed so proud of themselves, and nobody seemed to be mad that I hadn’t been there at all. We did some of the watercolors that I had meant to do all along, but it ended up being a very successful class.

19 Aug 2024

Dream

I was in the hotel that I used to get all the time when I lucid dreamed, but I wasn’t searching the building like I usually do on my own. This time I was in the ‘lobby’ getting a tattoo appointment for a tattoo that I really want in the waking world. The people that worked there looked so dystopian, the lobby looked like a really sketchy office, the lights were dim and had a yellow tint to them, and there was a couple of tattoo chairs to the right around the corner. I could see the long hallway that I always dreaded in this hotel with the infinite amount of doors, and the brown check in desk was in front of me. The lady was asking me what kind of tattoo I wanted and what my budget was. I tried to pull up the vine tattoo that I wanted on Pinterest, but it wouldn’t load. I explained to the lady that I was sorry for the app not loading, and that I couldn’t describe what I wanted to a t. She said it’s okay and that I could go in one of their waiting rooms until I had the reference picture pulled up. I said okay and went. I don’t remember what caused me to feel the need to hide from these people, but I bolted down the long hallway to find an unlocked door I could go through and hide. I eventually found one, locked myself in and sat by the door hiding my feet and shadows. The room didn’t look like the other creepily identical hotel rooms with the single bed, chair, and nightstand. This one looked like an old timey bathroom. I remember the yellow tinted lighting piercing through under the door and onto the cream tile floor in the bathroom. The workers were looking for me and asking if I was okay, and if I was ready to get the tattoo. I remember feeling very unsafe, and I felt like these were s walkers that I was dealing with. Their voices didn’t sound right, and I kept hearing non human sounds, like demon and creature noises. I eventually woke up feeling very panicked and I thought they had found me.

19 Aug 2024

Dream

We were at our old house again only this time it was different. I was spending time in my parents room because my room was a mess, clutter everywhere. It looked like I was moving things around and got tired. I was getting upset with my parents they kept having people over, never quiet. Then someone brought over a dead horse and my family insisted we eat it. I was disgusted and went back to finish moving around my room. Ended up going to some kind of zoo and aquarium. I was waiting for my friends to get there and I wanted to see the great white shark they had in captivity. My friends didn’t seem excited to see it, and I told them it was okay and that I had already been there once to see it and it was fine. It took them forever to get there but they finally did and we made our way over to the shark tank. They were still pretty uneasy, but once we started to see the shark in action they were impressed. Things started to feel ominous, and so we decided to leave and made our ways to the giant glass doors. Someone was standing too close to the edge, and people told them to move. The shark came and grabbed them. Everyone started to panic after that, and we all fought to get through the door. My friends and I made it, and we kept running to get out of the shark exhibit. But then we heard a loud boom and then soon water came and began to flood everywhere. There was a little kid all by herself and I picked her up. We ended up still stuck in the hallway of the exhibit. We ended up hiding in what looked like a meeting room. It was completely underwater and we had to hold our breathes. A shark came in, not the great white but another that tried to take a bit out of us but its mouth was oddly shaped and couldn’t get us back into a corner. Once it gave up, we snuck out and managed to get out of the shark exhibit. Unfortantely it was chaos everywhere. Injured people all around, I was still holding the child, I’d say was about two years old with all my might. We were being evacuated but people in a panic kept pushing and climbing over one another. I saw an opening to cut through the people and begged for someone to help lift us up. Someone finally heard and brought us up. It was Hugh Jackman. I woke up.

19 Aug 2024

Dream

In my dream many people were dying and I was helping a girl who was being hunted. She had been kind to me and felt like a sister. Towards the end of the dream, I sought help in a house, and the girl I was helping began exhibiting signs of having multiple personalities. This caused the person I sought help from to become scared. When I inquired about what was happening, she told me that the girl's other personality was coming to get us. I was confused until the girl started exhibiting erratic behavior. The person I asked for help began to pray and call for assistance, causing me to run and lock myself in a room. That's when I woke up.

17 Aug 2024

Dream

I went to the beach with family and the wave were high and I felt an ominous feeling as I looked into the ocean my mother got into The water and I asked to get out as the wave looked as if they were about to carry her out to sea suddenly a huge octopus with teeth emerged it opened its mouth and reached out to grab her but lost its grip and disappeared back into the water everyone on the beach started to panic as my mother and a little girl laid on the beach unresponsive

16 Aug 2024

Dream

I was in a room that I was sleeping in and when I woke up and the lights came on in the was a hospital room and I was in the visitor’s seating bench in the room. My mom was in a hospital gown sitting on the edge of the bed getting ready to leave with my dad and I. I stood up and went by my mom. A nurse came in and took the IV out of my mom and then said that she might as well take care of the other one while she’s here. The other one meaning the other patient which turned out to be me. I had some contraption that looked like the pic line I had in real life. I was scared and started to protest but was turned around. There was a mirror so I could see what was happening. First she put in a medicine with a needle that didn’t hurt. Then she put one in to take some fluid from my body and it felt like the pain from the needle that was put in to take spinal fluid from me in real life. But it was all located on the back of my right shoulder instead of my spine. I closed my eyes because I didn’t want to see it. A few moments passed and all of a sudden nurses rushed in and put me on a stretcher and held me down while others started sticking needles in me and another nurse in pink scrub shirt with a purple scrub hat had a device that was going to go into my body while could feel it saying that I needed emergency liver surgery and I tried to break free yelling “wake up! Wake up!” While crying but nothing was happening. I thought that I wasn’t dreaming anymore and this was actually happening and I panicked and cried struggling with nurses talking and putting medical things on me while trying to tell me I wasn’t dreaming.