Lawyer

28 Aug 2024

Dream

I was with my abusive ex-boyfriend. We are in this apartment and I'm hanging out with a couple of friends. One of my friends invited me to this activity to hangout. I think I had plans with my ex but for some reason I was kind of getting over him. So I decided to hang out with my girlfriends and I started making more plans with them. He overheard and from behind he grabs my head and slams it on the counter and asked me where do you think you're going. My ex never physically assaulted me in that way in my waking life but he would physically intimidate and if I didn't manage my behaviors I wouldn't put it past him to do something like that. For some reason, I wasn't even scared I felt validated that my two girlfriends were there to witness what happened. Later on in the dream I'm going through the criminal court case process like I'm currently doint in my waking life. I think that incident where he slammed my head got recorded and we were already in the criminal court case process when it happens. The incident got recorded somehow by my ex and he sends it to his lawyer. His lawyer comes over and tries to retrieve I find his phone and take it. He tries to convince me to take the phone but I refuse, but I know if I hold onto his possession for too long he can use it against me so I complied but before I do I send the recording to someone but idk who. Later on were at this court and the prosecutor's lawyers and my ex’s lawyer or commiserating with the judge about the incident. And the judge finally rules he needs to be in jail during the court process. When the official trial court date begins I get overwhelmed seeing him and it hits me again what he did to me. I get triggered and leave the room and walk to another building where the prosecutors or located to try to emotionally gather myself. Several of the procecuter lawyers comes to check on me and make sure I'm ready to proceed to testify as a witness. I told them yes and go back. There was limited seating in the room and I would have to sit next to him I find another spot to sit at. There was another person in the room I believe a guy who was also a witness of being harrassed by my ex. My ex wasn't queer but it was notable that there was another person who been abused by him. In my waking life, he has a previous DV conviction from a previous girlfriend. Later on I'm not sure what was the ruling against my ex but Im pretty sure it was guilty because he was sent back to jail. Later on in dream I still felt overwhelmed with everything that happened. I went to the lower level of the prosecuter’s office and this creepy old white man tried to kidnap me and push me into this basement no one knows about and no one would ever hear me cry out for help. He almost caught me but I got away with him enough to cry out for help and a friend saw this suspicious behavior and several ppl were alerted and caught the guy and he was jailed. Later on I was in this house and feeling overwhelmed and scared with everything that happened to me between my ex and that creepy old man. I was scared and throughout the night my friends, the prosecutors lawyers who also was around being friendly to me, and even a coworker was there to help and support me. At some point I was even feeling scared to go to the bathroom by myself and my coworker was nice to come with me. Later on in the dream everyone in the house that was supporting me got loose and drink a lot of liquor, had fun and passed out. Everyone was nice to me. And I was surrounded by a bunch of people in this house supporting me. Later on in the dream me and the guy who got harrassed by me ex was at this party getting celebrated for being survivors of abuse and stepping up and going through the trials to hold him accountable. I finally was able to connect with the guy that got harassed we hugged each other and cried in each other arms supporting each other knowing only two of us understood what my abusive ex put is through. There was people taking pictures of us. But we hugged not for the photos but to hold space and support each other. We also remain connected afterwards.

11 Aug 2024

Dream

I dreamt I was applying to join some sort of modelling agency, and there was a written exam to get in. The exam was being held in my own house, which was very old and in need of repair, and very sparsely furnished. The person giving the test was a lawyer, and the other three applicants were a Hollywood actress and two university graduates (I have never completed any studies after highschool, other than a handful of community college or online courses). So I was feeling exposed in that they were all successful and seeing my shabby house, my obvious lack of material success; and apprehensive that I was about to be exposed futher as less educated. And then the first question on the exam was nonsensical, barely-formed phrases that gave no instruction whatsoever. There were computer monitors in front of the other three applicants at their desks, but I didnt have a desk or computer, i had to perch on stool behind the actress and read her monitor over her shoulder. The lawyer in charge spoke confusingly, indicated that this was a creative writing task, then told us to begin. He started a timer, and words started flashing by on the monitors. So I just copied down as many words from the monitor as I could, knowing that I was doing the incorrect thing but angry that the instructions were so bad, plus anxious because the other three seemed to understand the task. The timer went off and the lawyer asked each person to show or read aloud their answers. They had all creatively answered the written (nonsensical) question, using the words on the monitors. The actress boasted that the written question was just how movie directors communicated, so of course she understood it easiy. I was getting increasingly angry, and by the time it was my turn to reveal my answer, i was furious. I reprimanded the lawyer for this unfair and unclear test. They all argued with me and that only made me angrier. I stood up and waved my paper at them, shouting about how I had done the only logical thing, how unfair and restrictive this test was, if only crrtain groups could even understand the task. I felt proud of myself for making a good point and showing them their unfairness, but frustrated that they didn't care and had no ability to empathise, to see another point of view.

2 Jul 2024

Dream

I was in an office. I remember the office had a lot of sun that came through. I don't think I worked in this office, but I think I was a client. The people who worked there were lawyers who helped me with the legal document I was drafting. I also remembered asking why everyone worked in the office, and no one worked at home. This young white man was helping me with this legal document and told me he preferred to be in the office rather than work remotely. I remembered that being odd cause I love working at home because of the flexibility, and I would hate being forced to work in the office every day of the week. I think there were about 2-3 different lawyers at different points of the dream who helped me by reviewing this document.