Bully

26 Aug 2024

Dream

I was in my old elementary school that caused most of my trauma. Some people that have bullied me was there. Class was in my room and then I freaked out, grabbed a bat and destroyed the desks. I was about to hit them until it went back to the class but in an actual classroom, but I went through the walls of my school and went outside to this mesmerizing garden that I twirled in for a while. Then I saw my old school principal with his walkie-talkie and I went towards him in a panic because I was disobeying class rules. He asked, “how did you get outside?” I said, “I went through the little cracks.” He took out his phone and there was only 2 contacts, my brother and my mom. I chose my brother and then he reminded me of my sexual abuser by saying something and then I cried and fainted with her face glitching and the background black and green. Then I woke up with a marking on something with a dot saying, “anger; excused.” I woke up in the same classroom in my room and destroyed the desks once again with every one of my bullies backing up in fear. Then I teleported to a house party downstairs of my house with some people I recognize from my school. I kept on having flashes about my sexual abuser. I interacted with some people and as soon as something embarrassing or I didn’t like happened I went back to where I was doing the exact same motion. I tried taking a shower and once I got out. I got a flash again and purposefully reset what I was doing, it happened multiple times in the row until I was walking to my high school but it was more like a plain, fancy, college. I was late for my period 0 class and was going to my period 1 class. I walked up the stairs and because of the cramped place I fell on my chin and couldn’t easily get up, everyone was staring at me.

15 Aug 2024

Dream

i was sitting at a cafe with my boyfriend’s best friend and a girl who used to bully me, we where watching movies on my laptop when texts from my friends popped up on my phone i texted them back some mean things about the bully when i realized she could see what i said on the laptop she started crying and said “ i thought you where better than this phoebe ” my heart broke but everything i said was true

11 Aug 2024

Dream

I had a dream that I was with my dead cat and we were playing and having fun. My cat irl was very small. She was a kitten and had grey and white fur. At one point in the dream everything switched to a Chibi-like anime style. My cat who was now anthropomorphic, was being bullied. I then protected her and threw something at the bullies. My cat then said "thank you Luca. I will miss you in the after life. I will see you later, but for now I must go. Bye." I then started crying and said "Wait! No! Come back! Please!" she then started rising into heaven.

11 Aug 2024

Dream

I was in high school in my dream and there was also a boy someone unknown everyone had some kind of magical power. On mty first day of school I met him and something happens and we become friends then after school I got home and text with him then on our second day i had a encounter to some bullies and my friend saved me from them. Then after school I went to a fun place where I danced I accidentally did a wrong move but my grandfpa saved me, he told every one at home that if he had done any further delay then I would have been dead. Then I thanked him. Another day at school nothing much happed. After school I went to my friend's home. His house was very big. There he told me about his family and his girlfriend who had been went to another coutry for studies and all of a sudden a thief broke into the house and he take something with him and went to an whole another place through a portal we both followed him and He fought with the thief then I finally got the thing and started running I got trped by a group of people but then out of nowhere my grandpa came and let me go home then my friend also came. The people in the other world were very different. there facial features were very different from us.

6 Aug 2024

Dream

Dreamed I went on a school trip to Canada. Went with my whole class from high school. Had a really fun time. Got to the airport and it was sprawling. They had a large fluffy cat in the woman's bathroom. I pet her and loved on her. I picked her up and asked if anyone owned the cat and if I could take it home. They said "No one owns this cat, but it gives comfort to those who visit so you can't just take her." I said okay and began wandering. I then found a cat a friend of mine who was in the trip owns. I picked the cat up and started frantically looking around for my group but I couldn't seem to find them anywhere. I circled all around the airport until I got in the front and there was a LOT of people. The airport was being swarmed and as I'm holding onto this cat for dear life through a crowd of people, being pushed around too, I finally find a stewardess and tell her "hey, I am here with a high school group and I'm lost. could you please help me?" and she goes "oh its you! we've been looking all over to find you! she leafs me to where everyone else is and my friend sees her cat. a group if girls tries to pull me up to the vehicle (which isn't a plane) its more of a huge flatbed truck. I refuse and hand over the cat first, and my friend thanks me. The only open seat left is next to a guy who used to pick on me but in the dream he's asleep. I have my bra I've taken off in a baggy and one of the other guys asks me why I've taken it off. I say because its uncomfortable and that's none of your business. I get led to an area with games and a teacher who I have a crush on helps me pick something to watch. I ask if he wants to watch anything too and he says " No, makes me think of my family and I miss them." I feel awkward and pick something to watch myself. lastly, were driving along the highway and there's a turn. I watch as the driver expertly drives us and I want to talk to him but I know he's busy so I leave him alone and instead pick a seat next to him to watch the road. I think about how I have a friend on Discord from Canada and that shed probably love to hear about my trip, and I wonder if I was close to where she lives. I wake up.

22 Jul 2024

Dream

The high school bully boys and my first love were all together in this dream, i was head over heels with my first love still in the dream and was desperately trying to get together with him, but again there were many obstacle that seperates us. Despite the fact his genuine feelings towards me in the dreams brought me tons of comfort, and also wanting to get together. There was still a hint of passiveness in his tone that broke my heart a little. We were under ground going thru a freshly dugged tunnel and was trying to find our way out. Finally we reached above ground in a school canteen, and right when I was excited about to uniting with him, finally being together, I woke up.

16 Jul 2024

Dream

An insight into my dreams I had . Never had a choice to leave school, it wasn’t an option. I had to return and be in close quarters with threats (bullies) they bullied me in person and online which probably felt like I couldn’t escape feeling unsafe (tigers, lions outside) because I still had threats coming in via phone. My abusive marriage has a similar theme— irrationally felt that I had no choice but to stay- feel stuck- even though there are periods of intermittent positive reinforcement. I believe that I truly will never be able to let him go and not be in love with him for the rest of my life. These two variables cross into a distorted dream version of my reality. I am always trying to collect my things and escape but I can never retrieve all of my belongings (heavy grief is associated with the feeling of leaving important items behind) and even when I do get out to a vehicle with my stuff I can’t carry it and the car never works/comes to get me.

11 Jul 2024

Dream

Wandering about in the foggy Hakone regions, mostly near Lake Ashinoko Having sex with my father, being chased around the plain filled with pampas grass and patches of grassy autumn fields Scene switches and now I’m on a highway bus, on my way to the observatory/museum/community centers on some high altitude areas around Mt. Fuji I’m with my best friend Maka, whom I had bonded over our shared (bad) experiences wtih our bossy and bullying classmates back in middle school We arrive, go through some sort of an attraction/projection-mapping show in a mini-theater, with the 3D glassrs, swinging chairs and water spraying and stuff to make the whole thing immersive It was about some planes or the people who had built the first electricity line on Mt.Fuji or smth like that Pioneers either way Once we’re done and get out, we’re free to roam and wander for the day We decide to go to the nearby aquaduct/dam/marsh/park, either way close to the waters and the untouched nature Me and my besfriend walk through narrow paths in nature, have a little picnic by the plains, gaze in awe at the marshlands, its autumnal-wintery-summer vegetations somehow coexisting in the same area On our way to the ancient aquaduct we see rainbow in the sky, and the sunny rain The whole classmates who are there rejoice, as they’re a rare and lucky phenomenon, a sign of auspiciousness

5 Jul 2024

Dream

I was at a Harvard science fair. Id made my project and everyone was there but suddenly I noticed it was lots of kids I’d grown up with. They were all normal and I got whatever reason was weird and abnormal. They started bullying me for my weird behavior told me I’d never be able to achieve my dream of going to Harvard or even have a chance of winning the science fair bcs I was too weird