Obstacle

25 Aug 2024

Dream

Last night I had a dream that’s a variant of many similar dreams lately. I was sitting in a cafè having coffee with someone, I don’t know who but I know that it was a friend or acquaintance and I was waiting to go to the airport. I don’t remember where I was going just that it was very important. Someone asks me (actually I think it was my husband) when my flight is and I said 15.45 so I gave still lots of time. We sit, chatting and then I say, maybe I need to go get my bags and start getting ready. When I’m there packing the bags I see my phone has been on “do not disturb” so I switch it on and notifications about my flight start pouring in from an hour before. I then understand that I remembered badly, the flight was a connecting one and the second flight were to leave at 15.45 but the first one was at 13.30! I panic, I HAVE to get to my destination, it’s so important, people are counting on me, oh my god what am I doing, why am I so distracted? I usually have total control about things! Weird enough I’m more or less at the airport and I need to find the office of the airline so they can maybe help me get to the connecting flight or change it to a direct one and I just need to add the money. I’m searching for the office, asking people for directions and some just look at me blankly, then finally outside a pharmacy a lady tells me it’s just around the corner. I turn the corner but just see a restaurant. I ask the lady again and she says, no it’s there, just look closer, I don’t think you’re looking. I go back and I see it, it’s right there. I go to open the door and I have to look down because the step is at a weird height and when I look up again I wake up. This is a variant of other dreams with the same sense of urgency and getting to a certain secret destination that’s vital for me and my kids. My husband is usually there but never helps, sometimes he even makes it worse by going the wrong way taking the kids with him or not listening when I call for him/them. He usually never looks at me or talks to me, like I’m not there. Usually I need to get to a bus, or a train or a flight and I loose my direction or there are obstacles in the way (stairs that change where they end, or by crossing the street I end up five blocks further away, by opening a door I find myself in a place where I don’t know how to get out or where I even am). I always wake up before I get there or before I know I’ll make it. It’s like an elusive maze but with the stress of having to get there, almost like it’s a life or death situation. It’s extremely stressful and the dreams are filled with a lot of anxiety and frustration. I’m doing everything, like everything I can to get me (and sometimes the kids) to where I need to go but whatever I do it’s like walking through mud or being pushed further away. I’m thinking this is a metaphor for my life, someone or something being the block that keeps me held back in every way.

11 Aug 2024

Dream

I was going to help a friend get over her fear of going into a gym for a workout but they she betrayed the team somehow and i felt responsible so then wanted me to workout during a gymnastics class and part of the training was underwater and I couldn't do it and I then couldn't breathe and they had to start ripping apart the obstacle course and water was getting everywhere and then I woke up

10 Aug 2024

Dream

I was at a big indoor palyground and they had an obstacle course and I thought if I just keep going fast and held on tight I could do it and I got through the first part fine but when I jumped to the next section I almost didn't make it, I just barely caught myself with one hand holding the edge of the platform and I had use a lot of muscle to get my other hand up and pull myself up then I jumped to the next part and it was a blow up part (image a bounce house) but it was shaped like a T and had a question on it from some quiz and I held on really tight but because it was blowup it could shift under weight a small bit and it had shifted so it was leaning my way and I couldn't pull myself up so eventually I fell off and went to play on a different part and some guy came up to me with his phone and it had a quiz questions on it he wanted help with (like one of those mobile games for your brain) and I said I saw another question like that and so his wife came with me to the obstacle course and I showed her and we made it to the next part this time but the next part was the floating platforms designed to look like clipboards and they would fall away if you went on one and I was trying to be fast but I just wasn't quick enough and couldn't jump far enough so I'd grab an edge and try to pull up and so it would start falling as I jumped so I wouldn't make it all the way again, so I did the obstacle again and I thought to myself about needing to think outside the box for a solution and eventually I came up with an idea and I shapeshifted into a cat and ran across the platforms and jumped into the end tunnel and shapeshifted back as I rode the slide down and I had the thought in the slide that I was being tested on my magic abilities and then I got to the bottom of the slide and the lights were half off and Sun from FNAF was there (no other humans were around anymore) and I caught just glimpse of him walking then a glimpse of Moon from FNAF (in FNAF they share a body, Sun is good and like light, Moon is evil and likes it dark) and then Sun came right back as the lights came fully on and he said "just kidding, sorry but I had to turn the other lights back on" and then another portion of lights went out so he left to go turn it on again and I walked around and eventually saw these two smaller star and crater characters (they were like half my size) and I just knew they were trying to get Moon to come out so I ran around to try and find Sun to warn him and not get caught by the other two and I found him by some breakers turning lights back on and I explained the other two that I saw and he looked startled and then my alarm woke me up.

9 Aug 2024

Dream

Oh, also I forgot to mention Dragonfly 🐉🐲 flew in my path at 141 pm 1:41 pm which easy Uncle and that's due to the fact his Blood Pressure at the doctors way back when was 141/ over whatever these are signs from the universe in check and that was a sign it was him. Also my Mom and I were frustrated trying to add to a group texting app for our neighborhood called Bobbye Garage and it didn't work for thirty minutes and tried all attempts and I said wait.… let me think 💭 there's a way and I never gave up and put on my thinking caps my intelligence unlocking doors 🔑 🚪 bc of positivity I haven't been able to see in myself for ages. Amen 🙏🙏🫶🫶its unlocking doors 🚪 and I'm overcoming burdens obstacles removing ❌ already placed roadblocks and banishing and poetically and administratively vaporizing them because I have that mindset I have it!!!! Also them and alleviating my self doubt conquering demons and bad energies and just and assisting myself in positive self talk 💬 and some others Dont understand what its like to be in a dark place and overcome it like Batman and my Uncle would be so happy 😊 Im so happy for myself… he would be proud as well as my ancestors….this is helping and its reflecting on my past life vs this life and with this self achievement I walk through life with unwavering determination and sheer awesomeness I stare my problems straight in the eyes 👀 and say bring it!!! Balls of Kryptonite excuse my language…. it irritates and upsets and scares people not on the same level or wavelength. Another level has been achieved. Never Surrunder Never Give Up. I'm inspiring not only others but myself.

8 Aug 2024

Dream

Dream today I was in a magnificent place In my dream as if I’ve reached enlightenment I’m ascending to new levels never before seen in my ancestry and heritage I’m breaking those generational curses and seeing people as whole souls and with my superbly awesome demeanor in High High High High Emotional Intelligence I go through life like cake like butter 🧈 so easy to get along and tell vibes and energies. I’m overcoming all obstacles and proud and this is it this the turning point it all starts with me. What was trying to keep me down only succeeded in hurting itself not me I overcame….Lots of envy and jealousy around me I’m helping influence and creatively perfecting myself in many ways inspiring people I haven’t even known I’m inspiring and aspiring to new levels. I had a talk with a Tarot Psychic and she said there’s things that are unattainable but lots of possesively awesome things happening and need lots of protection but yet I still make it through with sheer class and there’s evil entities but they don’t have the POWER OR STRENGTH I HAVE FROM MY ANCESTORS ARE PROTECTING ME. LOTS OF GOOD ENERGIES AND POSITIVE THINGS AND OPPORTUNITIES. I’m ok with that. Like in that dream 💭 💤🛌💭😘🌙I may not get the whole pie 🥧 but later I get pieces 🍰of 🎂 of it, and that’s awesome almost as if it’s what I’m missing with my Erect Dick or Penis or Cock Size just that much more and I’m good with that it’s attainable. 2 pie slices equals 2-3 inches more so I’m ok it’s attainable just need to push through and never 👎🏼 give up self improve….I’m talking to women but it’s ok to be friends and not get the whole picture of being with them simping kissing messages and hearts 🥰 emotional texts and and flirting and caring is plenty for me….a lot of people single and it’s the new norm while back then it wasn’t. Focusing on me. Not everyone wants what’s best for me they are or at least most are probably leaving me because they are afraid of how powerful I am and have become.

22 Jul 2024

Dream

The high school bully boys and my first love were all together in this dream, i was head over heels with my first love still in the dream and was desperately trying to get together with him, but again there were many obstacle that seperates us. Despite the fact his genuine feelings towards me in the dreams brought me tons of comfort, and also wanting to get together. There was still a hint of passiveness in his tone that broke my heart a little. We were under ground going thru a freshly dugged tunnel and was trying to find our way out. Finally we reached above ground in a school canteen, and right when I was excited about to uniting with him, finally being together, I woke up.