31 Jul 2024
Dream
Last night I had the most amazing dream. 1 was at work, but not work as it is today in the new office as a contractor, but in the old office building like when I was a salaried employee, who was a part of the EY family, with my own personal space, (this was the version of my job where I was the happiest).
I wasn't doing anything, just going about my work, when I was approached by one of the managing partners, apparently they had read something I'd written or heard something I'd said during a meeting they wanted me to explain it further in a companywide conference call. 1 had something to do with Dietrich Bonhoeffer bringing together my seminary training with my real world work experience. It turned out this partner was part of the Bonhoeffer Society which probably explains why they understood the significance of what I had said. And now they asked me to be a part of an online discussion and explain my thoughts with staff from other offices.
I went to my tube and sat down I was surrounded by laptops open with screens showing people from different offices, but not only this a group had gathered around my cube to hear this meeting as well. did my best to get through my thoughts with the man interviewing me from the main screen. He was a black man with a salt and pepper afro and a roundish pleasant face. I remember adjusting the screen and switching monitors so people could see and hear me properly as I shared my thoughts. There were constant questions from people standing around the cube, so I couldn't honestly tell you if I ever finished what I was trying to say in the interview, but they were all such good question coming from people who were truly engaged with my ideas. I knew that nobody was disappointed, least of all me.
After this meeting an older woman approached me and asked if we could speak somewhere more private I said yes, and took her into the tax processing/reprographics room that is at the center of the office, the door is very close to my old desk. Less people walk through there. The first question out of her mouth is "if you could do anything you wanted and time and money were not an issue, what would that be?" I moved our location a couple of times, so I we could hear each other better, because I knew something amazing was about to happen and I wanted to hear what she was saying fully and wanted her to be able to hear me, 1 knew this was important, 1 was about to get some amazing lifechanging offer. All of my thoughts and ideas which I've had but never realized came flooding to my mind. She explained that I had never been a leader before, until now, but all of that was about to change, and I would have people who cared about my ideas helping me to make them happen because they believe in them and they believe in me. This dream is a picture of my ideal life, where 1 am seen, heard, understood, and respected. Where people think 1 matter - it is the exact opposite of my waking reality. I woke up feeling euphoric, wondering if life could ever be that good, and how long 1 could enjoy this feeling before the afterglow of my dream is sapped by the realities of my everyday existence.
