Transgender

12 Aug 2024

Dream

Me and my family take a vacation and we’re staying at this tiny run down house in the middle of the mountains. The house freaks me out we all have our own bed but the beds are shaped weird. I made a mess of my luggage. I feel like I’m the night it’s haunted. The house scared me. I think there were creatures outside. Being here I miss my boyfriend, Mike. Some gow Mike shows up. I’m hugging him and I’m cutting his hair. He needed a haircut. My dad is saying we’re leaving the next day and to be prepared. I’m not prepared. Mike goes off somewhere and I can’t find him. I want to find him because I love him and horny. Eventually I find him and I hug him. For some reason I’m at work now, which is a haircutting place. But this person won’t stop bothering me. Calling me names and trying to fight me. I’m holding them down because I’m stronger. Eventually I’ve had enough and I loose my temper I scream “get off of my you transgender freak” everyone hears me in disbelief, they now think I’m an awful person and they call the police. I wait for the police but I don’t really care, I know I did nothing wrong. This man comes to take me and I follow him. I think he’s bringing me to jail. As we’re walking I run away from him. I end up lost in this city with so many people and buildings but it’s dark and mysterious. Eventually the man find me but I fall in love with the man, he reminds me of my boyfriend. Then I run away from him again into this weird building. I fall into a giant room of slime. I feel like I’m going crazy. Eventually the man find me to save me but I’m past saving. I turn into an alien. I run away and I end up in a giant egg with slime. I’m blue now and I’m playing with slime. There’s a little creater in the corner, she says she’s my child. I think Mike is the father. I miss Mike but I’m a monster now.

23 Jul 2024

Dream

I was #Tuuro from #Tokyo_ghoul, a #transman, I was in a #classroom, mostly highschool, everyone knew me as a #girl. I ordered #Shawarma and #Oriental_salad, then went to the #car that takes us home after a lot of #searching, I had to stop it to drop off my #food, the #man gave me salad that contained only #cucumber and parsley, I asked him why and he told me my #money wasn't enough for #tomatoes, then I put him a lot of things in his #baskets, some of them were my own books, or writings. I was waiting for him to speak with me about what I #wrote. I went to some #room that I had a lot of queer friends at, we were #talking about our #relationships, and then #reading a #manga about some #transman and his lovers, we were debating about which #person he also loves. I remembered I can buy some anime figures from a #shop that only a #friend that I cut off with #knows, so I dialed her, we went there and we were hugging each other, and the next day I went to #school, we had a #lesson about the biological #autonomy of #males and females, we had also a #lesson about how #intersex people may look, I was #anxious because in the #dream I was #intersex, so they had me remove my #clothes and they observed how my #genitals looked like. I then went back home again, in the way I met one of my #mates, she was buying #bread, she bought all the #bread in the #shop against everyone's will and well, then she went away laughing at me. I then met my maternal #aunt and parental one, they were fighting, I met my parental #cousin and we were saying those two could be very good friends if they knew it, they were fighting against their #bread supply. I then were regaining childhood memories, I was #working in a #feild that my #father owned, #tomatoes for his own tomatoe sauce factory, I was cutting some #tomatoes for myself, I then remembered we had to sell our #field and lived in the same #apartment as the factory. A day later we were #walking in the #streets of #Egypt, I said that everything reminds us of the #revolution even though the #government is trying to make us forget it. I then saw people starting a #revolution.