Smell

24 Jul 2024

Dream

I remember in my dream that I was attempting to hide from someone who is seeking for me. It was a lady and her black dog. I was with my dad when I realized this lady was searching for me. I attempted to run away when I knew the lady was coming to find me. she wasn’t looking for my dad. I ran down a hill through some trees, but she was catching up to me so i knew I had to find a place quick and found a place under this person’s porch that I was next to. It was a small square storage space that had windows, but the lower section was concrete, so I tempted to hide below the window and stayed there with my head hoping she wouldn’t find me but I knew that her dog would smell me. sure enough the dog came and smelt me. The lady opened up thedoor to my room and found me in the

15 Jul 2024

Dream

I was in this unfamiliar house. My estranged brother was showering upstairs. It was a long time that my brother didn't bathe cause his clothes was very musty but he also seem to not care. There was a long period of time my brother wasn’t bathing enough in my waking life and was often very smelly. It was really hard to be around him because he smelled so bad but it also seemed like he didn’t care. I went upstairs and his clothes was on the bathroom floor very stinky he went to the other room to get dressed. At some point it felt like my brother morphed into my abusive ex and he was getting dressed in the other room. Similarly to my brother there were long periods of time during my relationship with my ex where he didn't shower or took care of himself. He suffered with severe depression but it was often hard to be around him cause he smell so bad and he wouldn't shower. I had to adjust and get used to his lack of bathing because of his mental health condition. Due to his abusive qualities early on in our relationship he started to control when I would bathe. And I sometimes had to sneak to shower before he can tell me not to. Back to the dream I remember myself sneaking to take a shower because I was scared my abusive ex was going to force me not to bathe because he preferred my scent unbathed which I hated. I woke up before I finished the dream. But I remember the feeling of anxiety and worry of being forced not to bathe and trying to hide away from my brother then abusive ex.

13 Jul 2024

Dream

I was a begger on the street. My clothes were rotten and torn and I smelled awful. I was holding a sign and asking people for money, I felt so much shame and guilt for not being able to afford to live. Everyone was so mean to me, some people threw food at me, others spit on me, kids laughed. I felt like I wanted to die. So I pulled my pistol out of my shopping cart I was pushing around, and I shot myself in the head.