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27 Aug 2024

Dream

Visiting mother’s side grandmother’s house with mom Buying onigiri, our favorite snacks and a pencil and a sketchbook The last two items are for finishing ip a group art/presentation project before the family gatherings We get to grandma’s apartment, lounging at the third floor room while the relatives gradually gather I work on my project sketches This project is eerily similar to how the one for my last school trip in high school went(it was a recreational activity assignment, and it was to make a full skit in mere two nights during our stay; I was assigned the group leader for my team solely because I was the oldest of the bunch in grades(there were fucking 7th-8th graders in the mix). while other teams had their own friends and had an easier time just having fun while creating I knew none of the people prior to the event, our group were full of either socially awkward, plain unfunny, possessing blessings in the art of seriousness(cannot lighten/loosen up and jokey to save their life), or were chronic pessimist/complainer so much that it actually sabotaged the progress of the production; we ended up bombing the whole thing because none of us could or were in any condition to think up a decent sketch(the three-day schedule of the school trip was PACKED, not a minute of room for realistic rest or unwinding, nor to brainstorm or practice our ideas; it was unfairly designed and my team and I got the shortest end of the stick among all other teams my three 12th grade classmates were leading) and time ran out before we could come up with a coherent script. I blew up on their face mid-performance because I just couldn’t fucking take it(i was also in the middle of mental health crisis unsupported by adults around me and were on three bins of energy drinks), left a brave 8th grader who came up with the script idea publicly humiliated and traumatized(I did apologize to him afterwards and deeply regretted and felt ashamed of it but still)) And just like in real life I end up mismanaging the time and forget that it was supposed to start around the same time as the family gathering party/dinner(7pm) Once I realize this at like 8 after the first phase of the party is over I dash to a dark and quiet tatami room to connect to Zoom And lo and behold the one kid who suggested the plot idea for the animation is shouldering everything again; the pattern repeated itself He/she’s getting just as reckless, hopeless, frustrated and on the edge as I was in the real-life version of this event The plot was Japanese traditional horror story The art style is this beautiful Japanese coarse colored cut-paper arts(Evening is expressed with indigo papers, there’s red lotus lakes, goldfishes, red lanterns and townsfolk in kimono merrily going about their business, etc.) But all the sudden the tone of the narration changes(the medium doesn’t) and it all gets disordered beyond the savings, turning into a Hyakki Yagyo(the Demon’s Nightly Parade around the city streets from the Heian-era folklore); the one kid who shouldered it all snapped and went ‘fuck it’, started crushing the entire tone and the story on its head The viewers of this live animation performance(my classmates and the whole school) are intrigued and are curious about this sudden change, causing rumors to spread and such The rest of my team members can only watch in horror as do I, since the kid refuses to relinquish the control over the livestream, feeling unimaginably guilted for making the kid shoulder everything due to our own inactions, procrastinating and unrealistic perfectionism After the whole thing ended in a strange little comical(to us, utterly humiliating and horrifying) happenings, I go talk to the kid to first of all check in on their mental state and overall condition(wellbeing and sanity) The kid is sitting on the tatami, looks up at me upon noticing with an eerily calm, almost uncannily gentle smile and tone I scramble to apologize on my team’s behalf for making him/her suffer but they would not hear me, pausing me with a raise of their hand; a strange air of eery composure and authority to them now, hard to deny I feel overwhelmingly helpless and guilty as we are both now teleported to inside a moving bus, the kind I’d see running around the Tokyo metropolitan area often It appears the vehicle is around Hatsudai(near Ikebukuro-Setagaya); the sky is blocked by the thick, highway guardrail and the surrounding high buildings and skyscrapers, and I see a highway ramp ahead that the bus doesn’t seem to be getting on I implore the kid what they want and such, but they ignore my words and continue on with their strange questions and words about my Vedic astrological signs, which are Uttara/Purva Bhadrapada, for moon and sun signs respectively Some talk about how my ruling deity, Shani(personification of Saturn in Vedic astrology; son of Indra/Surya, half-nephew of Shiva, the dreadful dispenser of karma on behalf of Lord Yama of the afterlife), Ahir Budhnya(Ananta Shesha, the Serpent from the Depths in the Hindu creation myth) as well as Aja Ekapada(the fierce, one-legged serpentine aspect of Lord Shiva, specifically in-tune with darker, occult subjects like black magic, the left hand path and such), plays major role in my nearly lethal, intense and unignorable, leader-like qualities that I am born with Something that is according to the kid’s observations “omnipresent in my life and in that of those who interact with me”; says whoever I interact or encounter in my life, however minor their roles or involvement may be, leaves either me or the subject person completely transformed, with their egos(and sometimes any other parts of their preconceived notions about the world or of their healthy self-esteem or ego) destroyed; that I am either the person’s karma or I myself am given the karma of Shani, Aja Ekapada’s(or of Shiva or Yama himself indirectly, through him), swiftly and devastatingly It’s starting to turn into some kind of a spiritual lesson delivered through this incredibly emotionally heavy reenactment of traumatic circumstances and I don’t like it The kid ignores my discomfort and goes onto talk about the qualities of the blue sapphire, the gemstone influenced by Neelam, the personification of the gem and also a consort of Lord Shani(Saturn) and the mythical connections to what is needed(moral disciplines, consistencies and dedication to serve your fellow humans from the heart), and how it applies to this current situation(basically the kid’s telling em to humble myself and such after admitting that I’m also complicit in this dysfunctional dynamic of the project group as its team leader) and beyond(how there is an urgent need for me to heal my traumas and what came with it that is starting to affect my external environment(the people in my surroundings aka my teammates and other peers, staffs and teachers who interact with me in this school) in a scarring way)

25 Aug 2024

Dream

I was an accomplice to a murder. I was attending a dinner with a small group of women. No idea what the occasion was. It was at one of their homes. My partner came with me. There was a blonde woman there that my partner was flirting with and vice versa so i was in a really bad mood. I was angry but trying so hard to hide it but the more the woman spoke the harder it was to hold in my anger and annoyance. We were all sitting together in a large circle- the blonde women sitting opposite me and my partner on the other side of the room. The blonde woman eventually got up and when she did, another woman just randomly went up to her and slit her throat with a kitchen knife. The next thing i remember we were all trying to flee the situation and avoid getting caught. But the people i escaped with were not the same people from the house. My partner was no longer with me but i didn’t necessarily notice this in the dream. I was really scared, especially about getting caught. The group i was with was really set on denying that we knew anything, should we be questioned. But they didn’t have a plan, no alibi, no nothing. I thought to myself, “we’re not gonna get away with this, they will know she was with us last if they seize her phone”. Eventually we end up at some type of prison camp? I’m actually not sure what it was, but there were lots of other people there and there was set meal times, followed by everyone lining up to get vitamins, similar something like that of a camp or prison. I don’t know why hay is significant. There were haystacks around this place. I repeatedly played the scene in my head and i remember feeling a sense of relief when i remembered that i didn’t kill the woman myself. I reminded one of the people in my group and they mentioned that the girl who did it wasn’t even with us. I was terrified of going to jail but knew i was incapable of lying. I was thinking of all the ways we’d get caught and trying to find a way around it.

13 Aug 2024

Dream

I was at house I lived in with my best friend ( we don't live together anymore and are no longer friends it ended in bad terms) but their were a lot of people and men, the group of people left an a man stayed behind we were about to have sex when the group appeared back in the house and was watching me and the other man whom I was preforming oral on an started to judge me, one of he girls who judged me was a old coworker whom I never really cared for I fought her for her comments she made towards me. Fast forward me and the young man seemed to be very connected and ighink brought me food and gave me money. Fast-forward again the house started to flood and my best friend called her mom and in the dream her family know I was planning on moving out and they told her she shouldn't worry because it would be my responsibility as in she planned on leaving me with the mess the young man who I was talking about before was not happy and spoke of it!

10 Aug 2024

Dream

I had a dream about me playing with friends and their parents didn’t want me to play with them and asked my mom but she told me that thousands of years ago she had a group of 12 people and they had powers and they had deer ears, bunny ears, fox ears,or just any animal ears. They showed us pictures of when me and brother were younger and I had green and pick hair with deer ears and fox tail. My mom said anything that came from that group was magical and cursed.

7 Aug 2024

Dream

It was a nice overcast day at the house i grew up in. I was outside in the ally-way and There was a group of people looking for a place to practice their music. They were dressed like a mix of differnt music style but all of them were nice. I remember leaning into "the leader" and hold him they can practice in the ally-way on the side of the property. "My mom dosnt come out very much" he agreed and they were setting up. I walked away with my purse and keys in hand towards a car.

3 Aug 2024

Dream

I’m in Omniscient Reader’s Viewpoint, a super meta webnovel that takes place in the apocalyptic Korea where some extraterrestrial beings have taken over, leans heavily into a lot of the tropes present in other Korean/Chinese/Japanese webnovels I’m in an underground tunnel/pathway that connects stations or whatever, following the leader of the group I decided to stick with(the one with Kim Dokja, the protag with all the knowledge about the world building of the novel and the system of the whole death game that the extraterrestrials have set up for their entertainment and nourishment to watch) There’s rats, dingy wetness, carcasses and bloodstains on the wall Once we get out to the ground level we’re basically going about on some kind of a traditional courtyard thing with bushs and trees of azaleas, camellias, Sharon’s Roses, baloon flowers, etc.(many plants native to China, Korea and/or Japan) Looks a bit like the Imparial Palace of Kyoto and other historical villas and gardens in the city We see three beautiful and busty women naked by one of the bushes, caressing each other’s butts and such in a rather sexual manner One is abashed, the other one caressing the first one’s ass seems rather lecherous about it, the third is caressing the second woman lightly and sort of eyeing the first two down lustily Obviously the people in my group are either weirded out, flustered or just enjoying the view while keeping a low profile I’m just sort of lusting over them without showing much external reaction The men in my group are curious or weirded out by my silence Kim Dokja is too buzy strategizing or just unemotionally nodding in approval

3 Aug 2024

Dream

I was walking home with a group of girls, a girl and I walked a bit further away of them after some time, then we heard a loud scream, I rushed back to the group and one girl was laying on the floor and another girl was kicking her head over and over again, everywhere was blood and the girl on the floor was dead, then the girl who murdered her walked away in a different direction and everyone else of the group was standing in a circle, one of the girls who was standing in the circle was laughing histeracly and all the other girls were completely calm. I started running away from them and a group of boys came out of a house, I asked one of the boys if I can call the police with their phone, but every time I put the number in it was always wrong and I couldn’t get the number right, I was freaking out and asked one of the boys to put the number in and then I woke up

1 Aug 2024

Dream

In the dream i met someone. We were in a group of 4 going on quests this guy became my partner. We continued to go back to my aunts house (i didn’t recognize them. They were unfamiliar to me but i knew they were my aunts) they were magical. They knew i had magic also and i had to find certian things to help with the magic. I began to fall in love with the person i was on my quests with. We needed to go to paris For more of these quests but he really wanted new york sushi. I was worried we were going to get caught. We ended up at the park searching for an herb that had a special name and that had a rainbow in the center of the leaf. We brought the leaf back to my aunts. Then talisha was there and she fixed my hair and it came out beautiful but she refused to trim my hair. I begged her to do it but she said it easnt time

31 Jul 2024

Dream

The first dream was a gameshow style of adventure that my group had to complete to win. The group consisted of my boss, my best friend, my younger brother, and several other people. We first parked the truck we were driving and walked a short trail to a giant river. We sat in tubes and floated along the river. My brother floated in the same tube as I. Along the way, we saw little side areas that we wanted to go to, but there was no clear path to get there, so we didn't try to go to them. We continued along the river. There was a rapids part and a smoother part. At one spot, there was a game to complete where you had to swim over a wall without touching it, and as you swam over, you had to shoot an arrow into a hole on the floor. My brother and I both tried, but we missed it. Then this boy in the water jumped on top of us and I was fine, but he pushed my brother under, and we got back up, but I was mad, so I grabbed the boys arm and told him that was wrong, and he didn't seem sorry, so I gripped his arm more tightly and reprimanded him again. I noticed that the group was waiting to get by, so I let go of his arm and told him to never do something like that again. Then we ended the river and I don't remember how we got there, but we ended up in this sort of store area with only three aisles. I looked around and started grabbing some gluten free food because I eat gluten free and I wanted to make sure I could eat something later in case no one else brought food, but I didn't want to carry the food, so I put it back. Then we ended up in this house which was owned by my boss's wife. She was the one running the gameshow. A sign said we should be wearing blue, and I panicked because I was in my work clothes and I had no blue in them. My boss told me even a stripe of blue was fine, so I lifted up my skirt to find out I had a dress on underneath my clothes that had blue lines on it the whole time. Then I went up some stairs and met my boss's wife. My best friend went up the stairs ahead of me, but she went off some other direction to some random room. Then the lady told me how to get through the next game, and I began to play. Then the dream just ended without anything else happening.

31 Jul 2024

Dream

I'm at the beach riding, horseback riding with other people. We are in a group and we're waiting for our joint ride to start and I'm sitting on a horse and I don't have reins and I sit there okay but somehow I'm not really controlling my horse. And then someone looks at my feet and says she's not in there correctly so they correct my feet a little bit. I just need to move a bit more in front and then I'm sitting so well on my horse and we start the ride and I'm riding like the wind.

27 Jul 2024

Dream

This dream was split into parts. The first part I was with a group of people that I have never seen before but I assumed we were meant to be mates or at least aqutancies. In the dream I was convinced I was in an old era possibly the 70s or 80s. However there were inconveniences which made it obvious that we were not in the past at all we were in a time that was closer to the present. We were at a football ground and while it seemed past tense there were sponsors on the stadium and high were the give away. The second part of the dream the soft play appears again. At the top of the soft play is a room that was full of wrestling championship belts and bags of other items scattered around. The only way to win was to get up there first and escape with whatever you can. All of a sudden the lights went off that’s where I took my chance. I couldn’t see but I followed a circular stair case to the top of the soft play to the room. The lights then came back on and that was pretty much it for now. Now I’ve woken up I must admit this dream feels unfinished.

27 Jul 2024

Dream

I’ve had this dream multiple times before. I remember being in a group of familiar people (I can’t exactly remember how many or who) and we were walking down a road. There was a restaurant nearby and we walked up to it and walked through the drive thru to the entrance. (Sometimes the restaurant is McDonald’s, sometimes it’s Burger King, sometimes it’s Wendy’s, and once I remember it being half Wendy’s, half Ice cream shop, and in the back there was a bar. I remember walking through around the restaurant, maybe ordering an ice cream and waiting at the counter.