20 Aug 2024
Dream
In a funeral hall
Elegant and soft designs
Assisting my mom rehearse and prepare her mind for the eulogy speech
Not sure who really died but someone close to her, older generation
Maybe her father(my grandfather) or grandfather(great grandfather)
Being sabotaged, interrupted and disrupted repeatedly by grandmotherms(my mother’s mother) words and verbal jabs, she has a passive aggressive, cold and critical attitude when it comes to her own daughter
Assuring my mother through it; she has low self esteem
It’s kinda tiring tho
Seeing a blue, impressionistic painting that looks like blue and hold ocean with bits of something red in it
I find it beautiful
The heckling and the interferences continue into the actual performance on stage
People ‘ahem’ing at the situation, likely to the nagging grandmother
Mother losing confidence every second
Me helping and doing whatever I can to shut the granny down politely and such
Once we’re done we’re out of the building
It looked so magnificent from the inside but it just looks like any other building in a countryside, the whitewash sort of chipped, parts rusted, engulfed in vines and the flora from the surrounding forest
We turn out backs on it(now there’s a man I don’t really know, a voice of my dad(just the voice, no real presence), and my younger brother)
And get on bicycles that’d been left alone nearby and speed down the rocky slopes, dense woods around us, tree canopy like tunnel roof
The whole area looks so much like the manor house square(there’s only the stone foundation of it left) of the castle ruins in the mountain we lived at the edge of(forests)
Once I’ve come down the perspective switch
Now it’s like I’m flying on the bicycle across a map
I can see a moat; looks a bit like another Japanese castle I went to
Car roads surrounding it so it looks like the Imperial Palace too
The ebbing and flowing of tides, in timelapse
The moat, the big pond and the waters are affected by it
Once it turns to night(on the map) the park area shows itself
Near the edge of dawn I go cycle into it, landing from the sky
Playing around, lotus pink and white, beautiful dawn, purple atmosphere and sky
Coming back to the house(the building I currently live in; owned by my other(paternal) grandma)
Now the scenery is downtown
Family reunion going on with all the relatives from my mother’s side taking place
Icky vibes, mom’s mom(the bully from earlier is here too, being all obnoxious, fake-merry, faking demureness and being braggadocious)
My bestfriend Maka from middle school is here too, so I take her and go up the indoor stairs to lose the crowd
Mom too, she joins to supervise but not really; she just wants space from her bully mom
Playing around, going up and down as parts of the stairsteps disintegrate and reveal a glimmering white offgrid, unrendered area under the map(like in games)
There’s breeze despite it being inside(not really anymore, there’s infestations of plants and weeds, pretty tho) and itms really fun, relaxing in a way, the progressively ‘ruinous’ state of the building being swallowed into nature and the sparkling otherworld
Mom seems greatly unsettled(like a normal person would be), Maka is having fun, playfully poking fun at my nonchalance and giving commentaries on both of us and the situation
Climbing up high enough that we noclip into the outside staircase
This one’s rusted but still safe
Breeze blowing, it’s sunset
Mild, warm and chill
Sitting on the steps, talking about what happened back at the funeral venue
Commenting to each other frankly, joking around about it being a hex or an evil eye(not really joking)
As the time passes we come down from the bubble of the fun and comfort, hear the relatives laughing and still having the party and such
Deciding to go back
Noclipping into the inside staircase, pausing after descending about a third of the steps to the room where the party is, calling out to Maka and mom that I don’t want to
They smile, look relieved and agree, we nod to each other
We climb back up the grassy staircase and float into the map-like perspective of the sky around the town and the white overworld
