Shower

27 Aug 2024

Dream

This wasn’t a dream, but I was thinking about my ex girlfriend a few minutes ago while in the shower. I was also thinking about how I wish I could go back in time to when I first met her. If I had been more mature back then I would’ve asked her about the future and if she saw us being together forever. If that had happened I would’ve loved to receive voicemails from her telling me she wants me. Not only in a sexual manner but also living with me and us experiencing life with each other and starting a family. If i had kept in touch with her I would’ve done whatever it took to keep her happy. I truly hope we reunite and she tells me that she missed me over the years. I would’ve told her the same thing and how beautiful I thought she was when we first met back in middle school. She truly was very beautiful. Shoutout to Raylene. Wherever you are I hope we reunite and if you’re interested in getting back together I’ll do whatever it takes to make you happy and to fall in love with me.

26 Aug 2024

Dream

I was in my old elementary school that caused most of my trauma. Some people that have bullied me was there. Class was in my room and then I freaked out, grabbed a bat and destroyed the desks. I was about to hit them until it went back to the class but in an actual classroom, but I went through the walls of my school and went outside to this mesmerizing garden that I twirled in for a while. Then I saw my old school principal with his walkie-talkie and I went towards him in a panic because I was disobeying class rules. He asked, “how did you get outside?” I said, “I went through the little cracks.” He took out his phone and there was only 2 contacts, my brother and my mom. I chose my brother and then he reminded me of my sexual abuser by saying something and then I cried and fainted with her face glitching and the background black and green. Then I woke up with a marking on something with a dot saying, “anger; excused.” I woke up in the same classroom in my room and destroyed the desks once again with every one of my bullies backing up in fear. Then I teleported to a house party downstairs of my house with some people I recognize from my school. I kept on having flashes about my sexual abuser. I interacted with some people and as soon as something embarrassing or I didn’t like happened I went back to where I was doing the exact same motion. I tried taking a shower and once I got out. I got a flash again and purposefully reset what I was doing, it happened multiple times in the row until I was walking to my high school but it was more like a plain, fancy, college. I was late for my period 0 class and was going to my period 1 class. I walked up the stairs and because of the cramped place I fell on my chin and couldn’t easily get up, everyone was staring at me.

18 Aug 2024

Dream

I was waiting for my alarm to go off. I also had a shower. Got out ans spilt coffee over the towels. Creating a mess. I was going to do a wim hof chalĺenge. It seams dangerous as he wanted me to climb down a ice ladder, i decided not to.

15 Aug 2024

Dream

I was in the bathroom when my mom walked in and had to get some bugs off of her feet, she started rinsing them in the shower, she told me not to wash my crystals with water. I to her I understood and grabbed the shower head to help her rinse the bugs down the drain.

12 Aug 2024

Dream

In my dream I woke up at my normal time to get ready for work, and Heather and I were messaging each other about the weather. Good light conversation like normal. I went to get into the shower and as I looked at my naked body, it was all splintering away like rotten wood, most of my insides were hollowed. I looked out the window and saw a tree had fallen onto the roof of the house, with multiple breaks of branches. The weatyer was strong winds, heavy rain and dark clouds. I worried about Heather in this weather. I couldn't reach her. Then I woke up.

11 Aug 2024

Dream

Continuation of last night’s dream Running through the airport and the bus terminal with the aunt’s family(this time, none of them are replaced by characters like they were yesterday. Kids are still constantly changing in number whenever I look.) Uncle has less presence Staying at Boothill’s apartment room Boothill is a brash, flamboyant cyborg space cowboy He cannot swear because the synesthetic beacon on his body has been tampered to censor bad words and turn it into something else Being treated like a child isntead of a young adult Everyone showering in order Me trying to shave at my turn because the way the guy treats me like I’m not a girl in my prime(the right way to treat a teenager btw) makes me self-conscious getting called at from beyond the bathroom door just when I got to shave of a tiny portion of the softer, shorter parts of my pubes Hurriedly putting everything away and making way for auntie to take the shower next Berating myself in my mind for being so impulsive and emotional-laden(shaving because you thought a man at least thrice or four times your age would even oay attention to you) Dinner’s done, and everyone sleeps Even Boothill(his body goes into hibernation mode or smth idk) I sneak out of the makeshift bed, go back to the shower space, start shaving again despite the fact that Boothill won’t probably even think about fucking a barely legal teen-just-turned-young-adult and can’t if he wanted to because most of his body is cyborg Crying because I feel miserable, being made to see how validation-starved I am as a girl Boothill stirring awake due to the slightest noises, calling out to me from beyond the smokescreen of the shower room door Raises head from the hands I buried it in, answers the guy in a tone as natural as I could make it to he after wiping tears

2 Aug 2024

Dream

Only thing I remember was that my friend was talking to some other lady I was thinking something in my mind and I stopped my friend from talking and asked her wait what did she just say and she kinda got a attitude with me so I got mad and told her that she didn’t have to get a attitude I just wanted to know if we was thinking the same thing so we had a little fall out and avoided talking to each other for the whole day I went my separate way I was on a bike going to my families house when I got there I seen my mom and there was a bag of clothes I remember seeing some black pants that I grabbed so I could go take a shower . My mom asked about my friend I told her we wasn’t talking to each other right now

31 Jul 2024

Dream

i had a dream that i ordered mcdonald's at a mini hotel airbnb community thing where you have to enter and take a public shower but wait in line first because there's only one and then after that me and my mom went into the airbnb community thingy and had to sleep in the smallest bed that has no bed frame but was still really comfy and i picked the bigger one that was slightly higher off the ground and had silk sheets but then when we ordered our food we never got it and then an evil boss guy came into our place and indirectly gave us a feeling that we were never leaving the place and i wasn't really panicking because it was a really comfy place but i was really hungry for the mcdonalds i ordered

29 Jul 2024

Dream

In my old apartment; I lived on tbe 3rd floor. I was in the kitchen making dinner for myself. It was some type of meat , vegetables and mash potatoes. The mash potatoes were very noticeable compared to the other things. Dinner was a little messy so I decided to go take a shower. Before, during and after the shower I noticed this dark shadow popping up and staring in my line of view. When I look it’ll quickly look away. Putting on my clothes and putting the food away. There was a knock on the back door, this is a privately own building so there should be no one here or no one who can get up here. I yell “Who is it!” And the voice said “Daddy” I wasn’t thrilled nor wanted to open the door for the nigga. But he got antsy and kept rushing for me to open the door. Okay sure, the min I open the door I was attacked by someone who wasn’t who they said they were. They had on all black and no face but you can tell that they were angry. Almost automatically my instinct kicked in and it felt so real. It was shouting things too me but it was all in a language I couldn’t understand. Finally I kill it and leave the house immediately. From then on up until I got to my friends store, at my friends store there was no one there, but I was fully expected then to kiss me. I am armed at this point, tired and confused. They all pop out from the back scared at how I looked but relieved to see me. They seem to be confused as I am about what is happening. Because customers were asking for me with a blank look in their eyes, when they told the customers that they couldn’t tell them that. That blank stare quickly turned back normal saying that “It’s okay we’ll find em! Just wanted to give them a present that’s all!” I looked at them in disbelief that’s when my male friend phone goes off. And it’s a direct kill order FOR ME from the entirety of the Divine 9 organization. “Kill on sight; Bring back body” I was expecting the male friend to turn but the kill order took no affect on him. That’s when all hell broke loose. As me and my friends are trying to escape to one of their safe houses all trying not to get killed or get me killed. Adopted family, Divine 9 are trying to kill me. I managed to hold my own for a good min until we got to the safe house. And my friends safe house was a FORTRESS. We were looking for answers and there was nun. Just the knocking of people trying to get in and kill me. She noted that she is below a hotel and it’s usually empty so let’s go because the Safehouse ain’t suitable for staying in over night. When we got in the hotel it looks like my current job working at Courtyard Marriot Albion. And the front desk person look like she wanted to just launch at me but had to keep it together because the friends I had, restrained people for just a second with their presence from killing me. She told us that our room is on the 8th floor. We got in the elevator and heard the front desk lady DART to the elevator. It closed and started going up smoothly but fastly passing floor after floor. Once it was getting close to the 8th floor we were getting ready to go, then 9,10,11th then the elevator started to speed. My guy friend destroyed the panel and we were not stuck. Other friend began to climb and search for a way out, we climb down to the 8th floor and got to our room. Opening the door~I wake up from the dream.

29 Jul 2024

Dream

I was in a house that I was moving out of. I’ve never seen or lived in this house in real life. My former best friend & roommate, Emily, was there. At one point I went to use the bathroom on the lower floor like I always did, but the door was locked & Emily was showering. I felt annoyed but I went upstairs, which I never did, & went to use that bathroom. It was absolutely spotless. It had two tubs, one normal & one that was a jacuzzi. There were also two sinks. I made a bubble bath & then I woke up.

29 Jul 2024

Dream

Tom and I eating dinner at a table with a white tablecloth with two other men. Sam was the chef and she served us some sort of ground beef pie. Tom called her over and said she shuld have cooked the meat more as it was pink in the middle. He was sort of harsh. The two other men said it was perfect and I told them we are usually vegeterian and not used to meat. Steve getting pissed off and stalking out of the house. Something to do with tango and one of the tango women hurting his feelings. I was pooping in one of the small bathrooms and a woman was trying to get in and yanked the door open but then closed it when she saw me. The bathroom went in a long ways and I went into the shower area to spray the poop out of my butt. Another woman was showering and she said something about windsurfing gear. Her butt was very strong. Outside on the lawn and there were long tables full of peole. Singing happy birthday to Lacey and another person. Sitting outside on a lawn singing Happy Birthday to ..ALAN. Emphasizing the Alan part but I think it was actually my moms birthday. Aiden driving by me in a store parkign lot and seeing me. It was the second time I’d seen him in a parking lot. I was afraid Tom would see him hug me.

28 Jul 2024

Dream

I was naked in our house and I was lathering soap all over my body like I was in the shower. My mom walked in on me being naked and told me to take a shower instead of being naked in the dining room