Past

23 Aug 2024

Dream

I was a spirit and was told that I have to remove and replace my old, ancient, never used, dusty, China cabinet because it's taking up too much space. I was told this about many items, otherwise I would become a lost spirit. I was enraged and bawling the whole time. Even though those items didn't get a lot of attention, they still held meaning to me, and showed me how far I had come. To replace or remove them feels like removing my progress, but I did it anyway because I didn't want to become lost. Each item removed caused a great deal of emotional and mental stress. I would remember moments of my life that had that item in there, but then also when it was last used and left to dust. I would outcry and scream and bawl at the top of my lungs at each item, and wonder why I was subjected to this torture. I awoke in tears.

17 Aug 2024

Dream

I am on top of this mountain that looks down on the hole of all the water city and the region surrounding it; basically the west Kanagawa region I am looking down at this magnificent scape with the river crossing in the middle of it from the ski jump stage/scaffold, the ski jump start-point arch, there’s an arch above my head Scene goes back to the time when I’m preparing for this thing(putting my gears on and such) with the help of my family(mother and younger brother) at the apartment room that we used to live in in Hakone There’s also Calcharo, the stoic, intimidating merc with flexible morality, the long straight white hair and the scars all over his hody from the game Wuthering Waves There’s also the girl that made me leave some of the past I had *to* her before I could move forward We have conversations while I get prepared, the environment is soemwhat cozy Scene changes, now I’m climbing up the slope of Shiroyama to my elementary school that I went to through 1-2nd grade before I went to Singapore Lush deep forest greens, rusted football ground frames, overall a bit ruin-ish but the kids are still around and the building itself very much indeed seem to have people in it What’s different about this version of Shiroyama Elementary School is that they have a parking lot, beneath he elevated first floor of the building I go in

14 Aug 2024

Dream

It was a nightmare. I was stuck in my bed, watching shadows move all around. I couldn't move and they were torturing me with my past memories. I kept seeing distorted faces them staring at me. My past friends, family even, they were so distorted. I finally mustered somehow to move or appear next to my couch, where my mother was sleeping. I held her tight and I was telling her how scared I was. How I was sorry for everything and how this is really disappointing and stupid from me. I eventually saw the shadow person, she was, taking and breaking things around my house. but when I told my mother nothing was happening. She eventually took me to her bedroom where I proceeded to watch that shadow woman continue to do so. until my mother told me "maybe you should go to bed earlier, and you are overreacting" I screaming "go, go away" for what felt like forever until I finally woke up the same position I was in from my dream.

29 Jul 2024

Dream

Someone from my past came back with happy energy

18 Jul 2024

Dream

traveling back to the past when I was still very young. In the dream I was thinking that I should get the nicest clothing I can wear to attend a party with my childhood friends

5 Jul 2024

Dream

I was listening to music again while I worked. This is another vision. I got a peek into my past life. I was a Native American. I was preparing furs for my tribe. I felt voices around me, children playing, people talking. None of it had to do with me, and for the first time, I felt at peace. I remember looking up and seeing my soulmate in his past life. That’s when I knew that my partner is the man I’m going to spend my life and eternity with.