Miscarriage

16 Aug 2024

Dream

I had a dream where my paternal cousin Arunothini whom I call her as "Aruni Akka", has given birth to two identical babies after suffering from a miscarriage a couple of years prior. One baby was a boy and the other baby was a girl. Me and my dad visit my cousin a year later to see her family and to celebrate the twins' 1st birthday. I saw the twin babies for the first time, the first thing that came to my mind was they both mostly looked just like their second older sister, Aishwarya, but also looked a bit like their oldest sister, Amritha. When I met them the boy instantly jumped to me for a hug which caught me off guard at first, but I gladly hugged back. My cousin Arunothini pointed out that she had spoke about me while he and his twin sister were in her womb during the pregnancy. That was why he really liked me. I loved carrying the baby boy as he clung to me. Before my cousin Arunothini's pregnancy with the twins, her daughter Aishwarya revealed that her mother was pregnant before and was expecting a boy but unfortunately lost the baby due to a miscarriage. I thought about why my cousin had twins because the boy was the baby could very likely be a reincarnation of the baby boy that died before and was the rainbow baby born after the miscarriage. I smile at the baby boy and hug him in which he giggles. Then we all get into the cars to drive to a nearby temple to do some praying before we have the birthday party. I carry the baby boy in my arms while Aishawarya carries her baby sister we and our families enter the temple. I look around the temple to see how big it was and everytuing was so serene, well-crafted, vibrant, and colourful. The temple is fairly new and was recently opened right after the construction was completed months prior. We all walk around the temple and do some praying. Once we were done we return back to my cousin's house to celebrate the twins' first birthday. We all enjoyed the party, gave the twin babies some cake to eat when we help them cut the cake after they blew their candles. We all ate delicious food and played some games. The twin babies had so much fun. They both were giggling and squealing nonstop and they were very happy.

5 Aug 2024

Dream

Dreamt I was at the grocery store. I’m preparing to host a large group of people. These people were characters from House of the Dragon. I’m speaking to a guest on the phone planning the weekend. As I’m on the phone we invite more to attend including children. I begin to go through the market to shop. As I’m going through the market, I’m contemplating what the children will like to eat. I end u calling someone to find out. As I call there was commotion in the background. I ask the person to inquire about the children’s preferences and they said oatmeal. As I turn back to the oatmeal isle, I see doctors offices surrounding the perimeter. I see one doctor leave her office and head out. I keep shopping. Next I see a doctor run out erratically. She’s running through the aisles looking for the doctor that left previously. I don’t know if she can see me. She’s screaming she’s late. She tries to enter the office of the other doctor. I tell her she left. She begins to run around the perimeter screaming she’s super late. I look at the time and it was 2:47. She runs back to the other office, opens the door and begins to cry. She grabs something and runs frantically. She screams something about being left and that the other doctor wants to read a magazine. As she runs around the perimeter, she cries harder. She now is screaming that she’s spotting. I feel bad as she’s had multiple miscarriages. She goes around the perimeter again and she enters an office. The other doctor is there. She tries to yell at her but completely falls apart and the other doctor hugs her as they fall to the ground. I come in the room and put my hand on her shoulder to comfort her

21 Jul 2024

Dream

I'm seeing things through the eyes of my doppelganger Julie, whom I've had to spiritually battle several times since my awakening in 2020, and I can see how she lives, and what her timeline looks like. When I was 15 I was raped, and got pregnant. I had a miscarriage, however in viewing Julie's world, she wound up having the baby, who is now a small child, maybe 7 years old; even though if our timelines lined up, that child should be more like 22 years old, but I know they don't always align... The child is petulant and aggressive, and suffers from some form of autism. The father is out of the picture, and she lives in an efficiency dilapidated apartment where you constantly hear police sirens, see red and blue lights, and most of the block's electricity is either spotty or altogether not working. There's yelling and screaming regularly, and there's mold growing in the kitchen. Her boyfriend Kyle is physically abusive and she fights back. They've stabbed each other, and he once threw boiling water on her. They both have long arrest records, and she hates her life as a mother so much that she would rather go to prison for child abuse or even infanticide than take the time to be a responsible parent. She doesn't allow me past her building, she won't let me meet anyone else in her life; so part of me thinks she's an actual serial killer, and that's why I'm in love with all things horror. It's her bleeding into me. When I wake up from visiting her timeline, I find that my legs are heavily bruised up with marks that look like someone tried to grab and drag me, as well as bruises on my forearms that resemble defense wounds.

16 Jul 2024

Dream

I was with my ex husband in my family’s house. We were having dinnner and then a saw my child who lost due to a miscarriage. He was alive and I was a good mother to him. My exhusband was taking care of him, my child looked like me but was white as his father. We were so happy.

8 Jul 2024

Dream

Last night I had a dream that I had a miscarriage and when I did my baby was still breathing outside of me but it was soooo tiny and I was so afraid and helpless I didn’t no what to do I sat there crying I felt so alone and scared