Granddaughter

12 Aug 2024

Dream

My dream was basically a fucky version of the Count of Monte Cristo. Tribes and villages lived together in this big kingdom. The villagers weren’t quite human. Some were half animals or tree people. An old king fell trying to protect his granddaughter. It was just really depressing and basically the bad guy won and was trying to force the “princess” to be his wife. She hated him though. He wasn’t a good man. Everyone in the dream seemed to be there own level of fucked. One of the feasts they even canabalised blonde women. It was horrible. I’m starting to truly hate dreaming. I feel like no matter where I go- awake or otherwise. Only pain will find me.

13 Jul 2024

Dream

I went to Ennis to stay and have a little vacation in a hotel. As I drove myself over there I was extremely tired. I parked my car and I was so tired. I went into the hotel. I ate dinner alone. I heard my granddaughter in the next room, talking to her mother and her mother‘s boyfriend and she was talking about drinking. She was with her friends. They were being very naughty. Then walked down to the lobby to leave and I saw my ex-husband and his friends. They all asked if I had been drinking. I said no I had a very bad headache. Then realized I had forgotten my sandals in the room. I ran down the hall very fast. Had to get my key because I’d already checked out. Then I went into the room and I couldn’t find my shoes. And one of the hotel staff was with me. They were my favorite Birkenstock sandals. then, just sat down on the floor and cried and cried.

10 Jul 2024

Dream

Walking in a park and the people in the park would not look at me. There was young girl in her teens sitting alone. When i sat by her I knew instantly that she was my granddaughter who has passed away as infant , still born . We had a conversation that could not be heard. She had long black hair and was beautiful.