Cockroach

8 Aug 2024

Dream

I was…in a room. I believe a random bedroom, unsure of why I was there. It was familiar but for an unknown reason. There was a cockroach…fearfully in the corner of the area. I sought it out and killed it by stepping on it, seemingly. Then…there was Dave, he seemed to believe nothing was wrong. Despite being his normal almost-broody self, he was a bit nicer and upbeat. I thought it odd but did acknowledge his good mood. Next we went to Dollar General…a Dollar Tree store…or a Goodwill shop. We found the furniture aisle and was looking through it. I found a pink stringy fluff pillow on the end of the aisle as a little girl recommended it. Couldn’t see her for some reason, but she was there…around 8 years old and wearing Mary Jane shoes. Again I knew not how I knew that by the sound and footprints of it. I went to a more open area, surrounding a centerpiece of some kind, like a Lowe’s. But then I noticed a flood…and alarms went off as the water levels rose to my ankles. I grabbed a kayak and rowed to Dave, to which I saw flashes of a trail, neighborhoods to seek, and Dave yelling commands to finish packing and load the car. Which resembled a Black Jeep with a navy blue tint. Fresh tire on the back of it. He helped me pack my things and load them. As I watched the levels of the water rise and grow closer, as I urged Dave to hurry before this town was flooded and swallowed whole. Like an oceanfront. He got in the Jeep and I hopped in the back and ran the accelerator. We moved to the next town before discovering a commotion there with celebrities and suburban residents frantically waiting for something…seemingly shelter or housing. As I looked back at whence we (Dave and I) came, we saw a flush of water rising up on the trail. We were running out of time to escape to higher ground. It seemed like the flood was increasing in tectonic power…and rain began to fall. So thinking fast, I quickly disengaged from my belongings and the Jeep residing the way. I hopped up onto a roof, hearing the commotion of former residents and celebrities in screaming, “You can’t do that!” “Get down!!” To which I refused and ignored the jeering and chanting. I found a bulldog up on the roof as I navigated further along, and a orange cat with tuxedo kittens. I gathered them in my arms, the poor things shaking from being wet. I dashed further out the neighborhood via the roofs and trees, and found a secret staircase upwards. Bulldog started barking and kittens mewling as I turned my head to see the water overtaking our path backwards. I swallowed and ran up the staircase, seemingly forever, and watching the flood stop behind us, and the animals dry off and warm up. It seemingly felt like we were flying. Like I charged my magic to form big blue wings to fly. My hands felt hot as we made it to the heavens of Paradise. I looked down and saw no one else had made it. I lowered the animals safely on the ground. And they thanked me by jumping on my legs and pawing them. Before running off. Upon awaking a few times, I felt my back was heavier…like my wings were huge and dragging behind me. I felt hot upon standing up. And felt exhausted to fall asleep, even though I needed to eat. I woke up to storming rain one last time.

14 Jul 2024

Dream

I was walking around a zoo and I walked into an open panther pen and walk out and quickly close it so the panther can’t get out I walk a little further and walk to the bug zone and quickly get out of it before a bunch of bugs get attached to me and then walk to the Bambi zone where we take care of the orphaned animals and injured animals when suddenly 4 animals come rushing in because 2 tigers are chasing them and attacking them the guard dogs come barking and scare the tigers off and we examine the animals and fix all the pens the belong in especially the tigers

10 Jul 2024

Dream

Hello I wanted to say hi today and this is my waking life I had probably the best week and the best month of my whole year. My parents are gone for one more day and then comeback for a month and then go back to the Carolina’s. I had a good visit with my doctor and everything was pure class and happy. Had some crying spells 🪄 when I was thinking of Briggs my Neighborhood Dog that was so sweet. 🥹 I could just cuddle him right now like Pei Pei I feel emotionally charged happy excited and more full of energy and life as I’m off the Melatonin I can function better. Took my meds a bit late but it’s ok I’m ok. I had this thing I wanted to say… I was crying today after the day was over bc I’m home alone but I keep myself busy, I saw 👀 a cockroach 🪳 scurrying or climbing the wall, I usually smash 💥 em I got so excited in a sad 😭 way so melancholic I cried like a baby. I said to the cockroach 🪳 it’s ok 👍lil buddy I know what it’s like to be alone, and climbing the very obstacles in life but yet still alone sad 😭 and I’m crying now I’ve made it this far and I’m strong 💪🏻 and I feel the same for cockroaches as I’m spiritually awakened like a monk in a monastery. I feel so bad for those little bugs I’m alone and so is that thing I could use some company bc I miss my ancestors and so do they. They climb the walls like in the movie the mummy or Indiana Jones raiders of the lost ark. Same lighting and ceiling height. I’m so sad for those looking for their loved ones I feel the same maybe their happy or sad looking down on me. I sure hope they can see my overall achieved beliefs.

9 Jul 2024

Dream

I’m in Mack’s and Darcee’s abode again. I’m going through flashes of chest pain (located under the breast on the left side); I’m checking on the kids in one room, discovering 3 cockroaches on the corner table scattering, I recoil as well. But then I am suddenly in the ER for said chest pain, they’re worried as I’m locked and on my knees from the chest pain. Talking to each other frantically as they don’t understand what could be causing this pain—EKG was normal, ribs are fine—and while the whole time prior, I was caring for a white chunky infant. When I finally collapsed, the infant was gone. I went out the back trail and escaped into the woods— Then I woke up.

6 Jul 2024

Dream

There were bugs flying around my room but they were saying nice things about me?