Castle

24 Aug 2024

Dream

I dreamt that it was me an adult but on a school trip; but everyone was an adult as well. Everyone came to me for instructions as always. A guy came and flirted with me while I was eating with my friends. Before this, we were like at a touristic site where there was an old castle with a sea view. There was stairs from old rocks to take you there, and while i was discovering the site, the floor cracked near the stairs and i was gonna fall in the crack but i was with someone i dont remember who and this person and I together used our brains and saved me , i jumped to the other side

21 Aug 2024

Dream

Some big event. Lots of people running around what felt like a blend between a castle and a school campus. There was just so many people and everyone seemed busy. Too busy to notice me. I felt left out because i didn’t know what was going on and nobody cared to stop and include me or let me know what was happening. Specifically my dad. He didn’t pay any attention to me and it made me feel hurt and angry. He was so focused on everything else. So when i finally caught his eye, from a distance, i flipped off with my finger high in the air, making sure he could see me. He got angry and said something along the lines of “just wait until we get home..” implying that i would be reprimanded

20 Aug 2024

Dream

It was my birthday and Salvador and his wife were around, but his wife stayed at a table far away drinking wine by herself. Salvador, Tom and this other person were out sitting at this parklet along a street. I went and joined them and sat by Salvador with Tom across from us. He bent his head really close to me and said to look at his hair. My face was so close to his head and he said, “look, I am balding!” and I saw this very short hair toward the front and it looked like the way Prince Harry’s older brothe rwas aging. I thought Tom thought i was giggling too much at Salvador and he would know how I felt about him. I was afraid to talk to his wife cause I thought she was mad. Then I went adn talked to her and she was enjoying her glass of wine and told me about this movie she had been in. I asked her to join us and she said no, but she wasn’t upset. Me, Tom and Salvador were in this nature setting looking across a big river. There was an old castle in the distance and salvador pointed it out and said it had been flown in from somewhere. Then there was this singing competition along the river and Tom volunteered for it. I forget the rules but I was surprised he wanted to join in.

11 Aug 2024

Dream

I am a knight on a mission to kill the king of the kingdom. I sneak from the gate of the castle to the king's throne. I success on murdering it (the king isnt a human, its like a dark smoke monster), but i get caught by the princess of that kingdom. Shes wearing a red dress, blonde hair, shes hecking pretty, and shes the only one who are human there. She wants to be engaged with me since long a go. So she grabbed me by the hand and go to a big table w a lot of a food. Theres this nasty disgusting monster who looks at me w a big eyes that a lot of worms come out of his eyes, and a big mouth w facial hair that a lot of drools dripping from it. She pulls me closer to that monster, and she picks some drool from its mouth w her finger and drinks it w a pleased (aroused(?)) smile, she says that i need to do that too so she and i can finally be engaged. I get so disgusted by it that i suddenly wake up from the dream and almost throw up bcs of nausea. The monster reminds me of my sexual abuser/assaulter who r one of my parent

9 Aug 2024

Dream

The dream portrayed me as a tall skinny women with pale skin and long black hair. At first I seemed to be exploring the world/town. The town seemed modern and was near the ocean and what seemed to be a porting area for ships and boats as well as fishing. As I was exploring I remembered being happy and excited as I explored. At one point I remember dancing near a dock that lead to the ocean. My friend was with me saying how I was always happy and such a day dreamer. I giggled at her response and continued to slow dance by myself. As I was dancing I imagined myself wearing a beautiful gown and a prince dancing along with me. We were dancing slowly as we looked lovely into each others eyes. Suddenly we heard loud yelling coming from the main city. I stoped dancing and as I did the image broke and disappeared. My friend and I quickly looked at each other and ran towards the sounds and into the main city. As I did the surrounding changed. I was no in what appeared to be a small run down town that looked as if it was from the old west. The people in the city where dressed from that time period as well. As I got into the town it looked as though there was a rally going on. Several people of color and different races where marching through the streets shouting. I remember standing by some members of my real family as I asked them what was going on. They told me some kind of protest was happing and continued to make comments on the event and the town. Saying how the town was so weird and felt like a ghost town almost, due to its appearance and the way everyone in it acted and dressed. For everyone else dressed in old western clothes while my family and I, as well as my friend were dressed in modern clothes. As we were talking suddenly gun shots went off and people started to scream and duck down. Several more shots went off and people began to scatter and run for shelter but some people were shot in the process. Others started grabbing there guns and shooting back in response. I remember trying to run in a stop the fighting and shooting. I just remembered going to a burly and tough built women who was loading her pistol to stop and think about what she’s doin, and asked her who really is the one that started this fight. She hesitated unsure of how to answer. I don’t know how but some how I was able to get her to put down her weapon and was able to take it from her. Suddenly I saw two Spanish women ridders go by one who looked to have had captured a friend of mine who was a male. I hoppped on a white horse and went after them yelling my friends name. I chased them for a while until I got to a big opening near the coast the where no where to be seen but I new they had to be hear. I hopped off my horse and started looking around when suddenly two women kept out of the bushes wearing red old Spanish war suits. The drew the swords and pointed them at me. I cried out wheres Jack. As I did he walked out of the bushes wearing the same outfit as the women. I looked at him confused and asked… “your one of them.” He told me who he really was and that he was a Spanish prince out there to infiltrate the city. I don’t know why. I take it that I was if some importantance cause he captured me and took me back to there castle. While there I met Jacks mother who was the queen. She was very beautiful but had a pinched face and was very much cruel and harsh. She had cruel plans for me but Jack changed her mind and helped to insure my safety. Though I didn’t see it that way at first. I was held prisoner until a curtain night where I was to meet once again with the queen and Jack. But I tried to escape before then. I was successful in my attempt of getting out of my cell but couldn’t seem to manage getting out of the actual castle. I don’t know why but I was searching for a bedroom and was trying to find a gown to wear to help disguise myself. However I was being chased by the Queen. And I would go through one door then another and it only seemed to bring me back to the same room over and over again. I was getting frustrated and could hear the Queen getting closer. I finally found a room and was looking through the dresses and was able to grab a beautiful red dress. The dream then changed and I appeared to be in what looked like a flooded basement/cell room. The dream basically transformed into a video game where I had to swim and maneuver through to unlock cells and access keys to get out. Eventually I found all keys and unlocked a cell holding a beautiful blue and golden blimp/airship and was able to get out. I flew to this big tower out in the middle of the ocean. For some reason a friend of mine was there and she seemed to have some sort of powers. I talked with her a bit about what was going on and she told me I needed to go back. She had with her several magical creatures she gave me a white Pegasus and a couple of other creatures to go with me. I flew down and landed on the coast. There I put my self together by wearing the red dress I collected earlier. With the Pegasus and other fuzzy creatures help I was able to do my hair and makeup. The dream shifted again and it showed Jack sitting in a what looked like a dinning room waiting looking at a clock. The queen was there sawing to him I’m not coming. That I made my escape and asked why would I come back. Jack looked disappointed. For some odd reason he had been hopeful that I would be there. After hearing his mother bicker about me as well as him he go up and headed for the door. He opened it and there standing in front of him was me all dolled up in my dressed smiling. He looked surprised but he too smiled. Then I woke up.

9 Aug 2024

Dream

Being on a low mountain, looking down at the city and the surrounding scapes from the woods near the top canopy The One-Night Castle ruins built by the Toyotomi’s force in their attempt to trick and shatter the Hojo clan’s morale I’ve already climbed to the top Being urged and pushed down the path because the pursuers are coming and we are not safe Tuatha De Danann, night in the Celtic woods, sounds of owl, croaking frogs and crickets Scene changes and now I’m on a tile of game map; flat surface and I’m watching my own avatar move from above and aside(third-person point of view) The sky is made of paper and is sort of gray(and dark yellow, like before the storm/hurricane), everything in the backdrop is cut out of paper, pretty collages and marble chess tiles, mainly white, black, brass and rose red/magentas, very basilica-esque And as the avatar I’m carrying and convversing with my younger brother, who had grown significantly compared to how he was the last time I saw him in real life; in this dream he’s around fifteen or so All the conversations I have with him come into my head like in-game dialogues while I run around outside in this beautiful gothic-lolita papier-mâché world and into some other scenes(game level) It looks like a mix of Stazione Centrale di Milano, Station of St. Lucia of the Venezia, some cathedral or a basilica, Vigrid station from the first Bayonetta, the blend of new and old architectures with still that exquisite, richly sepia-colored feel to it all We are having conversations about how mom is and our opinions on her; he’d been living with her for a bit after the divorce before he was taken into the state’s custody, and I’d known her and lived with her most of my life till the divorce He tells me how during her pregnancy(while he was in her womb), she would go on sometimes about how unreliable and absent(emotionally, physically or psychologically) her husband(our father) ‘because of work’ and ‘all the things that he had gone through’, clearly being at least a bit remorseful and bitter about it but still clinging on We(mainly he) calmly point out how despite knowing that the man was no good when it came to those important matters of heart and one’s development psychologically, she didn’t do anything that’d actually help and ended up clinging onto something that would benefit none of us, out of habit(she’s basically been conditioned her whole life to fawn for red flags, narcissists and abusers; by her parents, her family, and then by the schools’ lecherous teachers, and then by her ‘fiancé’s, her sexual assault experience, and her former lovers and the current one(our dad)) Meanwhile we talk, I fdash and sprint across the maps, zooming through the moving bridges and limbo sticks that’s on some gaping bottomless abyss cut right out of the marble structures, infinitely large and situating itself below our feet Once we’re back in the atria(the glass-dorm roofed mercato) we look for a place to eat before the train we’d like to get on leaves Two options among all others stand out: an old, traditional cafe-restaurant, or the new limited time exhibition of some ‘artistic’ cook’s inventions(course meals) We talk about wanting the first one but somehow our asses gravitate toward the newer stand At the table all the other customers(seems to be almost all white, so bougie and pretentious) greet us and carry the conversations while I lightly doze off on my younger beother’s shoulder while he curiously reads the menues and tries to match them by pictures and ingredient lists I’m responding to the Italian locals that are attempting to talk to us in simple, beginner’s level vocalilaries that I barely remember Pasta genovese and some kind of a canned oil-preserved fushes with some sliced and clean raw fishes

7 Aug 2024

Dream

I dreamt I was sleeping next to someone in a castle that had talking fireplaces and the room started to fill up with thick black smoke and it came close to my feet I started to scream

5 Aug 2024

Dream

I was at a park for an event with other people I know in real life. The bathrooms needed to be unlocked and I had to go very badly. The head of our group unlocked them and we all dashed in. There were swings and no privacy. I tried doing my business but the discussions of the other people distracted me and they brought me into the conversation. I pretended I had finished and left to join our group leader outside where it was raining. I was in medieval times and we approached a castle where I recognized the wizard Merlin was escorting us to Robin Hood’s castle. It was a holy day so I was put into a dress with pants underneath since a battle was near. Marion was young-only about 12 years old-and thought me wordly because I was married. She did not like that I intended to fight alongside the men. After mass, I shucked my dress for pants

31 Jul 2024

Dream

I was near the Bedford castle near the river. Then behind the galleries, there's this car park. I was there where that small bit of grass was a guy was dressed up as a Viking and he was choosing his favourite historical character an event in time my dad said he picked the wrong one and he should have picked a historical character.

31 Jul 2024

Dream

I was in a land of magic . The man I was with did not want me casting spells even though I could help. The place where we were headed was a castle

26 Jul 2024

Dream

Walking about in some villa/castle/Hogwarts-looking structure built by some Lago Como looking lake It’s the first day of summer camp/school, and I’m peering over from the old stony balcony at the view of the lake There’s quite a few of my camp peers playing about in the balconies at the levels lower and I watch from above One of the teachers who’d been leading a few of them to the balcony I’m in greets me We have a little chirchat about room and group assignments and such, about all the courses I can take as a part of the arts and music academy program We go down once the orientation starts; the teacher seems to be of a mercurial disposition The castle is high and steepled, and I go back in and down through the stone helix staircase that looks like the one at the former/restored imperial library in Ueno I used to go to Greeting the other peers in the hall Getting a briefing and the beginner’s class done by the teacher from earlier Once the session is over they go quickly as they came, scattering to rush to the gymnasiums to play or just do whatever around the castle-campus I need to get the pass for the ‘I did these courses’ stamp cards stamped by the guy so I follow, but lose track After wandering about in the interior of the school that looks exactly like the old Japanese public school I took my SAT in despite the fact that this is literally a villa in lake Como, I’m found and guided downstairs to the teachers’ office by some other generous teacher and student Once I get there the students leave, and I walk into a few teachers discussing something about ‘programs’ and ‘not happening for this year’ and such in the middle of the corridor in front of the office I ask ‘what program’ and they tell me about this one dance lector among many others and practitioners of meditative/wellness-related stuff There are many options of genres students can choose to learn from during the camp program Apparently the guy is one such teacher among them Fusion, or some kind of an improvisational thing? ‘Some modern whatever’ one teacher says They tell me that the person practices in the woods, usually very isolated and stand-off ish ‘That one’ I say, ‘I wanna sign up for his class’ They look at each other for a bit before one of the teachers is assigned to take me to where the lector is I’m lead out of the villa and into the woods The soil is moist and crisp, pinecone woods and some taller trees of other kind The lake is visible from amidst the woods, pretty close to water In some wider opening amidst the paths lit by the cloudy sky’s light seeping cracks in the scattered conifer canopy he’s there He seems to be of a rather phlegmatic disposition, humor cold and moist He wears blouse that looks like it’s decorated with crows’ feathers, has the matching hair and eyes(gray? Dark gray), seems a bit depressed The teacher who took me here is basically doing the introducing to him and me, His name was something like Atmos Or some kind of a posh noble-like name We exchange a few words about my intentions and such, the guy’s scanning my whole appearance(AND my soul probably, like damn his eyes, it’s kinda hard to belife he’s human) Anyway the supervising teacher leaves us to our own devices and we commence He gives me a brief overview of the vibe of the dancing he teaches, almost ritualistic and trancelike I’m familiar with this I’ve done this by the ocean before I do this when I feel that spirits or some deep-seated emotions crash over me like waves He seems to be interested enough to coach me on the gait and such in my movements We move over to the edge of the lake’s shore, feet dipping in the waters I’m overcome by the sudden music I hear in my head(sounded like Enya or something similar) and I let them take control of my body’s movements The teacher calmly analyzes before commenting that I’d have been better off living as sirens or merfolks, not human I tell him I had the feeling for a long time I’m dismissed after the lecture On the second day of the dance lesson with the lector there’s a guest A girl, seems introverted, closed off; dainty, cold and fairy-like in her appearance, wants to join We both learn under him I’m unraveled of my façade as the days go, revealed of my deepest insecurities and trauma The lector calmly points out the flaw in the thinking and such, unemotionally encouraging me to channel it into my movements For instance he points out that one of the reasons why I learn the techniques so quickly anf absorb what he’s getting me to embody is because I myself don’t have a solid sense of self nor identity to begin with; I’m a sponge, full of holes that easily lets other things and people’s projected desires and dreams in, be it good or bad That it’s both the biggest blessing and curse Because of that I let others destroy me for nothing, that I romanticize the ruins because it’s the only thing I can convince myself into believe in as untouched by others; my own world and my imaginations that I always retreat into By this point me and the fairy girl are both vulnerable, but she seems to be far more guarded that I am I want the fairy girl to get vulnerable like me too, so I dig into the topic slowly through questions and conversations The more I go the more she seems unsettled, refuses At one point we’re yelling at each other, tearing at each others’ cowardices and arrogance The lector simply watches and calmly coachs but doesn’t intervene, cooly pointing out the flaw in either sides’ reasoning when he sees fit At this point it’s starting to feel like shadow work-slash-dance-therapy The peers and teachers I interact with on day to day basis are concerned, insinuating that the raven-haired mentor is influencing me too much or interfering with my private matters too much as a teacher because to them, ‘I don’t seem as cheery as I used to be just a week or two ago’ Obviously I’d be ragged I’m working through my traumas bitch

22 Jul 2024

Dream

The first dream I had was me in the city walking back to my hotel at night. I was walking down a empty road with lots of black African women selling things or attempting to sell things on the side of the road there were also some black African men who were selling what looked like umbrellas, made out of tree branches and leaves to the women who were staying outside selling all day. The dream transitioned to me visiting my cousin at his university of Carnegie Mellon after class, I walked to a patch of grass where him, his friends, my sister, and a bunch of other students were sitting and hanging out. It was great to see my cousin and my sister, but when I introduced myself to his friends, his friend wasn’t able to remember his name when I asked because he was so high on some sort of drug. I thought it was a little strange but I laughed at him and patted him on the back, telling him not to worry as I’ve been there before. at the campus there was a big roller coaster that was a drop Tower. I was waiting in line to go on the drop tower taking the stairs and all of a sudden, then entire drop tower fell with everyone on the stairs and killed everyone. I wasn’t scared of the fall but more nervous about the impact. the dream transitioned to me being in a castle with four winged lions that seem to be based on the Eragon book series because they were the color of the dragons in the book. One was gold one was red one was blue one was green. I thought it was pretty cool. The final dream took place in an Airbnb where me and some family friends had planned to rent a house for vacation with everyone however, unfortunately, many of the families with kids had to cancel last minute. There was one Asian family that had kids who were the youngest one of the boys was for the other one looked to be six. The father was a little disappointed that almost everyone else had to cancel last minute, we acknowledge that it was a bummer but what can you do it was beyond our control. later that day, when the Asian dad and his two sons were at the Pool, his older son began to become depressed and cry, and asked to go home. the father of the son and agreed that it would be best for them to go home meet the family friend call for a private bus to bring them home.