Bicycle

25 Aug 2024

Dream

I had a dream where I was being taught by a famous doctor about how to become a doctor myself. There was a boy there that was in a wheel chair and no one took him seriously because they thought he wouldn’t be fast enough. Then there were these other guys that just interrupted our class and said that we all were coming with him and if we don’t there’ll be bad consequences. They brought us to a small hospital in a small town where there was barely any people in. There was a really rich guy who was sick and no one at all could figure out what was wrong with him at all. Our doctor teacher told us we needed to give him some ideas on what it could be. But then two crazy people came out of nowhere, one that could run really fast like the flash, and the other who was strong and can fly like superman. Everyone else in the class was running around crazy while I and the boy in the wheelchair helped our teacher look for what made him so sick and then I figured it out and gave it to our teacher, he was very greatful and said I was his favourite. We super duper put some stuff in the rich guys body and started running away from the super evil guys that were trying to stop us from saving the rich guy. We found some bikes and all of us tried to get on them together but some of us just had to run. The boy in the wheelchair couldn’t run like we were because of the mud on the ground cause it just stopped raining. I ended up falling of the bike because I had troubles holding on properly, the boy in the wheelchair saved me in the nick of time before the evil superman got me, I don’t know how he got me so fast and it was still muddy I thought he couldn’t go through it. He said to me that he found some better wheels that had more grip on them and wanted to catch up on us to be with us. I said thanks for saving me and he kinda blushed and said no problem. So I went to hop off and start running again to catch up with everyone but he said to stay on his lap and he could get us there, but I was worried I’d be too heavy for him to go fast with his wheelchair. He said that I wasn’t bothering him and he said he had strong arm muscles, winked at me and started to move again. When we caught up our teacher was so relieved that I was ok and that he was worrying about me. To me he felt like a father figure. After managing to get out of the town and losing the evil guys the mini hospital called our teacher and said thank u for saving his life we got rid of the weird ones and put them in a cell that they can never get out of. I told my friends what the boy in the wheelchair did for me and I think that I kind of have a crush on him now. Everyone was surprised how he managed to get here with us and apologized for laughing at him in the classroom. The righ guy told his team to come pick us up and bring us home.

22 Aug 2024

Dream

I was riding my bike along a road. Following kids that I didn’t know. But knew their family. We came upon a burial site but we could see the bodies above ground. One was of a elder/medicine woman. She was dressed with blankets and something around her head. Then there was like smaller bodies and even baby skeletons. There was a body in a tree that was wrapped in a material. the burial site was like a platform. I was walking around on top and I noticed the car pulling up the car and I can see Grandmother’s grandson looking at me (ex boyfriend) I asked a guy I was with for a cigarette and I don’t even smoke. The grandson drove up to the platform and was asking if this is what I wanted- I just nodded not wanting to engage with him.

20 Aug 2024

Dream

In a funeral hall Elegant and soft designs Assisting my mom rehearse and prepare her mind for the eulogy speech Not sure who really died but someone close to her, older generation Maybe her father(my grandfather) or grandfather(great grandfather) Being sabotaged, interrupted and disrupted repeatedly by grandmotherms(my mother’s mother) words and verbal jabs, she has a passive aggressive, cold and critical attitude when it comes to her own daughter Assuring my mother through it; she has low self esteem It’s kinda tiring tho Seeing a blue, impressionistic painting that looks like blue and hold ocean with bits of something red in it I find it beautiful The heckling and the interferences continue into the actual performance on stage People ‘ahem’ing at the situation, likely to the nagging grandmother Mother losing confidence every second Me helping and doing whatever I can to shut the granny down politely and such Once we’re done we’re out of the building It looked so magnificent from the inside but it just looks like any other building in a countryside, the whitewash sort of chipped, parts rusted, engulfed in vines and the flora from the surrounding forest We turn out backs on it(now there’s a man I don’t really know, a voice of my dad(just the voice, no real presence), and my younger brother) And get on bicycles that’d been left alone nearby and speed down the rocky slopes, dense woods around us, tree canopy like tunnel roof The whole area looks so much like the manor house square(there’s only the stone foundation of it left) of the castle ruins in the mountain we lived at the edge of(forests) Once I’ve come down the perspective switch Now it’s like I’m flying on the bicycle across a map I can see a moat; looks a bit like another Japanese castle I went to Car roads surrounding it so it looks like the Imperial Palace too The ebbing and flowing of tides, in timelapse The moat, the big pond and the waters are affected by it Once it turns to night(on the map) the park area shows itself Near the edge of dawn I go cycle into it, landing from the sky Playing around, lotus pink and white, beautiful dawn, purple atmosphere and sky Coming back to the house(the building I currently live in; owned by my other(paternal) grandma) Now the scenery is downtown Family reunion going on with all the relatives from my mother’s side taking place Icky vibes, mom’s mom(the bully from earlier is here too, being all obnoxious, fake-merry, faking demureness and being braggadocious) My bestfriend Maka from middle school is here too, so I take her and go up the indoor stairs to lose the crowd Mom too, she joins to supervise but not really; she just wants space from her bully mom Playing around, going up and down as parts of the stairsteps disintegrate and reveal a glimmering white offgrid, unrendered area under the map(like in games) There’s breeze despite it being inside(not really anymore, there’s infestations of plants and weeds, pretty tho) and itms really fun, relaxing in a way, the progressively ‘ruinous’ state of the building being swallowed into nature and the sparkling otherworld Mom seems greatly unsettled(like a normal person would be), Maka is having fun, playfully poking fun at my nonchalance and giving commentaries on both of us and the situation Climbing up high enough that we noclip into the outside staircase This one’s rusted but still safe Breeze blowing, it’s sunset Mild, warm and chill Sitting on the steps, talking about what happened back at the funeral venue Commenting to each other frankly, joking around about it being a hex or an evil eye(not really joking) As the time passes we come down from the bubble of the fun and comfort, hear the relatives laughing and still having the party and such Deciding to go back Noclipping into the inside staircase, pausing after descending about a third of the steps to the room where the party is, calling out to Maka and mom that I don’t want to They smile, look relieved and agree, we nod to each other We climb back up the grassy staircase and float into the map-like perspective of the sky around the town and the white overworld

6 Aug 2024

Dream

Post-apocalyptic world Ruins and railways engulfed by the wild plants and forests that rejuvenated after pollutions and human efforts to keep them from expanding has disappeared, fallen bridges, rusted transmission towers Pink dusky sky, The Great Gig In The Sky by Pink Floyd playing in the background On a bicycle, going to a pond made of acidic byproduct of waste up on the hill with Dan Heng, an introverted, reserved young man working as a security guard and a librarian on an intergalactic space-traveling train(Astral Express) who is actually an exiled current incarnation of a former High Elder(de-facto prince) of the Vidhyadhara, a race of draconic humanoids from the game Honkai Star Rail We get to the acidic pond/pothole by one of those rusted transmission towers out in the open amidst the greenery of the hilltop We walk around, have some conversations while laying on the ground and such, I just watch him dissolve in the pool of corrosive substance again and again, his draconic race traits regenerating his own body again and again I’m honestly too unsettled by it so I try to stop it from happening every time but he just keeps dying and coming back to life Some of the times he talks with me while melting alive, he doesn’t even seem all that much bothered by it On some loops he’s hooking my legs up with his arms and fucking me like his life depends on it The sex positions are different each loop but most of the time it’s in a way that keeps me lifted up and away from the acid pool’s surface, and other times it’s right by the edge of the pool(missionary, doggy, spoon-sex, etc.) All this is happening in bits of ‘cuts’ of each scenes like it’s a movie film being scrolled through

3 Aug 2024

Dream

We were living in this economically depressed town and Tom and I were living in an old vintage style apartment that had decor like grandmas house, with wooden floors and an old wooden vintage desk. I think times were hard cause people were angry we were there and driving up property values or something. At one point I looked out the window and all these black men were on bikes and looking into our windows and I wondered if they were trying to stir up trouble or were upset. It felt a little scary. There was an amazing pastry shop and I was sitting at a table with someone but I don’t know who. She was a kind woman. There was some sort of strange game where people were putting socks in a bag to try to win something. I pulled a couple out and they were the high end Darn Tough brand. I thought the pastry place would be good to get the pastries for today’s brunch at Jill’s house but when I asked when they opened it would be too late. They had a wonderful spread of pastries on the counter you could choose from. It had a huge black board of cursive chalk and sayings that were hard to read. I’d been invited to a party or business gathering at Salvador’s with only a select group of people. I felt worried cause I didn’t know how he would react to me. I felt apprehension about this. Walking with this woman but we didn’t have good shoes so we were always asking to borrow a pair of shoes but we had to share them. One good shoe and one of our older shoes that didn’t work as well. We were trying to walk that way and it was strange and funny.

2 Aug 2024

Dream

If I can’t have you I don’t want nobody baby. Those lyrics resonate with me bc back in those times life was much easier the nineties everyone was happy 😃 healthy not a care in the world it affects me. I had a dreadful overwhelming sense of nostalgia I’m ok 🙂 now I just had to remember the memories with my parents and aunts and uncles cousins in Nc and Myrtle beach and grandma Jenkins it’s so deep and I remember how my dad would have grease and oil after changing bike tires 🛞 🚴 and playing these songs when things were easier my friend Tim having a green jacket when we first met I haven’t recalled that memory in 2 and a half decades. Wow 😲 it reallly is frighteningly scary how fast time has passed by I don’t even have time to take crap and scratch my butt lol 😂 If I can’t have the past I’m afraid I don’t want the future I’m scared. Euphemism the song by Barry Gibb If I can’t have you. Getting over a failed relationship with Cassie Jae Joon I’m not so sad or angry anymore not as much as family and friends I used to hangout with from swimteam and idc about dating I care about rehashing out my nostalgia deep deep nostalgia it’s saving my sanity and loneliness I don’t care how crazy that sounds. My very existence depends on it as I’m codependent on the strategies of being happy with not only gold or platinum but Diamond 💎 Friends Amen 🙏

28 Jul 2024

Dream

I had a car, a pink one, despite not having a driver’s licence. But I still drove from my house to the city anyway. It’s late at night, I’ve been busy in the city but now want to drive back home again. I want to drive with the car, and notice that my bicycle was in the car. I took my bicycle and start to drive a few meters before remembering that I wanted to drive with the my car so I got back and as I place the bicycle back I suddenly forgot again and started to drive with the bicycle again. This repeated a few times before I got tired of it and just kept driving with my bicycle. It was kinda scary cause usually i only use the bicycle around my hometown but in the city I got confused by the traffic ect. It’s already deep at night and I was surprised when I looked at the clock that it showed me that it was already 4am I drove through a nicer part of the city with cafés that were still open and made the streets glow warmer. I also saw a old gardening building and groups of people but i didn’t want to be confronted with them since its late at night. I suddenly drove past a doll-store and stayed still. They had a window and in front of it a display of different dolls and doll clothes. A woman came to the window and asked me if I was interested as I looked over the collection and i said yes. She invited me into the store and asked me what I was looking for. I remembered a small doll made out of fabric and wool-hair which I had as a kid. They had very similar dolls but my eyes catched some wooden dolls instead. They had the same size and were pretty cute. I asked the woman a lot of questions about the dolls, I’m usually too shy to ask many questions. And as I asked for outfits and person, a guy who couldn’t speak my language, came and showed me the two outfits I could choose off. Since I had a hard time with deciding he made a made a game of luck out of it by throwing our phones first in the air and saw how they landed before throwing two of the same dolls with outfit up and saw how they landed. I didn’t understand fully how he came to the conclusion but decided fore the other one. I didn’t have enough money to pay for them so I asked it the shop as a card so I would find them again and they gave me a postcard with the name of the shop on it.