Shadows

13 Aug 2024

Dream

This was a mashup of quite a few dreams with a nightmare. In the nightmare, is that I was in a homeless shelter setting, similar to my current situation in Derwood. There was…fire and shadows lurking in every corner. But I was facing them fine, I just needed to lie down to put my bags down…there was a kitchen and a bathroom rendered similarly to the ones in the childhood tv show, Courage the Cowardly Dog. The wallpaper was falling at the seams, and it seemed that there were sexual predators in many corners. I was burned into unconsciousness, and found myself with no face…a faceless figure was taunting and playing with me, like I was his food. He seemed no more than a child without supervision and too much internet. I ran and navigated so many times to no avail. He sent me into several different places with telekinetic almost superhuman strength. I was sent into the kitchen stove and cabinet with fish falling out….i landed with considerable impact, but was unharmed mostly. It did hurt, and the boy had remorse for a moment before I fell forward into a set of wooden cabinets. Then I was awake and on a trailer, looking out at the horizon…still at the shelter again. There was a symbol that recognized I was from independence now. One of their clients. They were buying me things and seemingly working with me until things turned south. The child from before ran up to me, grabbed me by the arm, using a lighter lit my entire head on fire. I screamed before I physically felt my neck break in dream and I awoke with my head in the same position. Unbroken. Shaken up, understandably, I rolled over to avoid sleeping on my back. Therefore was hit with another dream. This time of magical and metaphysical proportions. I was in a shopping mall…one of the big stores in the mall, with towering walls, merchandise, and many cataloguing or window shopping. I was exploring myself when I burst into casual song…a song I knew fluently…Havana? But when I started singing it, eyes were turned towards me by my beautiful song. I can’t recall why…but I was sliding around and dancing through isles like a musical. Eventually stumbling upon a child, and with a flick of my wrist, I transformed her into her fairy self, she was overjoyed and ran to get her mother. Her mother then came to request my prettiest sunrise, and I waved my hand across the sky and reflected a pink sky with a waking sun. She gasped at its beauty before I waved and a purple glittering veil appeared on her face, accompanied by silver steel armor. She felt empowered and emboldened. She sought her daughter and I gave her a signal to shoot if she needed anything. This would soon go haywire though as I heard screams in the distance, running toward them, I saw the physical embodiment of our entire solar system rotating around the sun in the sky, moving on its own like a shooting star. Seemingly to target me, the roof was ripped off and I started sprinting despite my health and limits. I found myself on the balcony first, reuniting the mother and daughter, then hopping down the layers of the building into a bedroom. Found my toxic sister but didn’t pay her any mind. I kept running out to the second balcony and down the stairs to a courtyard of children. But they weren’t there…to which I realized they were all ghostly children playing around in the green grass to revitalize themselves. Which I smiled and went into the building to find a surprise and… I don’t think I could ever see what it was…I woke up….and fell asleep to find myself running….only to awake again and find myself talking to my mother in my sleep…and heard my Case Worker talking to someone next to me upon waking. To which I bade her, “Hi.”

3 Aug 2024

Dream

I was in the town I grew up in, Walnut. I don't remember what I was doing, but I remember walking toward a house a few houses down from my childhood home, then I decided (knowing that I was dreaming) that i wanted to go take a look at my house instead. When I got there, my father was there. I wanted to give him a hug but he walled away and got in his truck. This didn't make me upset, instead I was curious about it and told myself to remember to record it in my dream app. I then walked inside, it was night time, I was afraid of something coming out of the shadows, or the eerie feeling that I normally get when I dream of this house in the darkness. But there was nothing. I looked into the living room and saw the outline of furniture, looked ahead into the kitchen and simply saw the glow of the moon over the appliances. I went upstairs, it was still dark, and nothing seemed creepy at all. I went into my bedroom, everything was how I remember it with my posters on the walls and my clothes on the floor. I took in the smell and laid down on my bed. I smiled and relished the nostalgia. It was a very pleasant and enjoyable moment. I drank in the memories, fully aware that I was dreaming. That's all I remember