Audience

19 Aug 2024

Dream

I was at kinda like a big mansion with everyone in my high school and we were all trying out to be a model and I was like one of the only people to get that Model spot and there was like a big line of people waiting, and I got to skipped the line for some reason. And then we ate at a really big buffet and I had a burger covered in a type of sauce that was mixed with alcohol and then it switched over to me eating a spicy burger and then I switched over back over to the other burger and then ate with some of my friends that I couldn’t really see who they were, and then I did lines in my car by myself of cocaine.

15 Aug 2024

Dream

I was running away from people a lot in my dream. The people I was running away from seemed to be people that I cared about and that cared about me. At one point, one of the people I was running away from was crying because they couldn’t find me, but I still kept running and hiding. I moved through different large buildings in big and small spaces. Some spaces had other people in them. Some spaces were empty. At the end, I found a concert with a lot of people in the audience. I joined the audience, but then I finally felt scared that the people who were looking for me wouldn’t be able to find me.

14 Aug 2024

Dream

I was like in a band on a stage with a lot of people but the stage was like in the air and after we finished playing we jumped off the island stage thingy in the air and pulled out a wingsuit and flew down to the ground into a bunch of bikes and we all got on them and drove to a desert and started playing around in the sand jumping over hills n stuff on the bikes

3 Aug 2024

Dream

A girl was putting on a performance about her life. She described how her mother forced her to perform and have sex against her will. Myself and the other audience members wondered why she was still speaking to her mother if that was the case.

30 Jul 2024

Dream

I had a dream in black and white of myself talking to an audience, similarly found like a narration on a film like a Television character. I remember talking about my life currently and me experiencing strange dreams and each time I spoke about a different dream, my eyes closed and it would be acted out by shadow silhouettes on a white wall. The final time I had a dream, I woke up in colour and saw that I was wearing my regular black turtleneck, black checkered suspender trousers and black Doc Marten boots. I looked in the mirror on my white desk I was sitting at on my white chair to match. At first I saw my reflection and then my inner monologue further narrated with me not physically talking, and said “Because deep down, it didn’t matter how I appeared to people, because on the inside, I have always been a Girl of Sunshine”. And the I saw myself through the mirror wearing a yellow turtleneck, a red mini skirt, black tights and brown boots, in another dimension in outer space. The version of myself still in my room smiled at myself in space and the dream zoomed into the mirror like a camera changing focus of something and I had that dream again of my appearance changing. I began wearing a yellow turtleneck with 3/4 sleeves and a burgundy skirt with white tights and brown boots. My hair changed back to the hair colour it was when I was fourteen, a blonde balayage in the middle and bottom of my hair with dark brown on the top of my head. The blonde was similar to a honey yellow colour. My eyes were white though, I couldn’t make out my pupils. I fully remember that in this state of appearance, I was in out of space. Though it was full of colour, with pink, green, purple and blue colours found in the sky in space full of white stars. I had flashbacks of times I had with friends from college and I instead of sadness I saw beauty. In the background of all of this, Noel Gallagher’s High Flying Birds’ cover of the song Mind Games (originally by John Lennon) was playing in the midst of it. I looked like a writer. I looked like a girl of sunshine in space and now I feel different from my old goth self. I was just lost in the song of Mind Games and Noel Gallagher’s voice. And then these end credits rolled in my mind with my name being on every credit.